Discussion If you could restart your life from your birth and try to fix it, would you?

[sserafim]

This is a great post, definitely for sure.

I wouldn't have had my eyes butchered.

Wdym

 

[kwittywhiskerzz!..]

Yes, the second I learn how to crawl or even become self aware. I would find any chemical and kill my self.

No, I wouldn't. I can't fix my life because, for me, existence is the problem itself. In other words, my problem is that I am alive and the only cure to this condition is death

You deserve better! I hope you can find something or someone that makes you happy.

 

[KafkaF]

Yes, easily.

I know a lot of stuff I'd fix and how to do it.

 

[grahf]

nope, I would rather not have been born to begin with than restart my life again.

Me to

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Knowing my stupid ass, even if I were lucky enough to be able to alleviate all the mistakes I made, I would inevitably make new, probably worse ones. A lot of the good situations that happened in my life were purely out of luck so to risk losing them by redoing those would be quite stupid as well.

 

[shaucro]

Me, I'd have a different father. The one I had messed me up.

 

[F@#$]

Same. I've always felt like I was meant to die young

So did I, now I'm not young anymore.

 

[4am]

no, why would i want to double the suffering that i've already experienced in this life

 

[Life interrupted]

No. I see existence as the real problem here. We're supposed to suffer and make mistakes, so another chance would just mean going through more suffering and making other mistakes.

 

[terra.nuvo]

I'm ngl, if I had all my memories and knowledge growing up I probably would've ctb much sooner in life. So yeah I think I'd just have to decline on the restart. But who knows maybe having all the knowledge I have now would make me make better decisions but I can't really see that happening.

 

[WaitingAllMyLife]

Ideally I'd like to choose not to exist in the first place. But if only given the opportunity to go back and do it differently, I abso-fucking-lutely would. I know exactly what I'd change and who to cut out.

 

[mtoro998]

Yes I would have done everything right this time.

 

[NeverGonnaEscape]

I think that ultimately I'd end up in the same place, but if given the option, I'd maybe try it once. There are a few things in my childhood and growing up that I think I could have done differently. It probably wouldn't have helped but I'd still be curious to know.

 

[DistraughtWolf]

In a heartbeat, yes. But, only if was allowed to carry some of my knowledge from the current situation i've fallen in.

Sure, i would have to live in poverty through all of my childhood with my single mother again, getting bullied starting from first grade... again and i would have same health issues... again..

But, i still feel like if i were to act earlier, made different decisions and had just tiny bit more luck... I would be in a better situation hopefully in my early twenties and i could push through with the hope of better life.

 

[Kit1]

No

 

[noname123]

I'd give anything

 

[EscSky]

Restarting life means doing everything all over again and that just seems exhausting. However, the chance to change aspects of my life is tempting. I would want to try, but I'm not sure if I would have the energy to actually change what happens to me.

 

[AbandonedApe]

In a heartbeat. I loved my early childhood, my parents were perfect, my mum hadn't started drinking, my dad didn't get so much pushback from her on all of his ideas for raising me. I would redo it all even if i had to endure all the later years just for those perfect early years, and maybe with my knowledge from today I could help resolve the fighting between my parents when my mum started to drink, prevent the country move, plus I could have avoided hard drugs, stuck to weed and the odd beer. I could have undid so many lost friendships. And if I failed to undo those things, I could have at least got my last attempt to CTB right and escaped it the second time around.

 

[Princess_Kitty]

Yes, I would definitely restart my life if I could. If I had the option to "fix" anything about my life.... it'd be to not be transgender anymore. Just live my life as a normal female. I feel like that's half of my problems..

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Being autistic it seems I was a plane destined for mechanical failure as soon as it left the runway.

 

[Dark Moon]

Maybe, their are some things I could have changed and I could have gotten my diagnosis earlier so that I wouldn't have to go to public schools which I don't really fit or belong in anyway.

I most likely would have still struggled socialising with people, fitting in, making friends and attracting girls. I also can't change how people perceive me, whether they like me or not and how they treat me so I don't know but it's looking like a no.

 

[Ceterum]

yes, I would be a different me ... and maybe one that even appreciates living. Alas, life is a one way street

 

[sickgirlzis]

probably not. most of the things that caused my problems were out of my control and I would just have to go through all that again. but I would probably change many things if I had to start over.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

Yes please!!

 

[bipbapbop]

I didn't do this to myself, so I know I would have to live through all the abuse again. But would I be able to figure out how to get out of those situations or maybe make it less painful? I think maybe if a year ago I would have been more open to it, but being in this much pain and imagining all the pain again is just too much for me right now. I guess I wouldn't do it all again. Even if I could have fixed things.

 

[Abyssal]

Fix what? My brain? I can't exactly go in there and play around. This is something I was always going to live with.

 

[Eudaimonic]

I would rather kill myself than do that. But if that was not an option, then I would.

 

[Alltheywanted]

I would take that but I'd still probably end up dead to suicide anyway. It's just like my only regret is not killing my self a year ago. I would do everything to just have fun before I do it on that particular day. I'm sure it'd be a lot of fun tho.

 

[LunarLight]

Yes. I would avoid SA. I would have been less messed up.
Not sure I wouldn't have been depressed and wanted to CTB though.

 

[DeadSpaceEnthusiast]

Yes. I have made so many mistakes and the pain of having to live with those mistakes is too much for me to bear. If I could go back with everything I have learned now, I would love to. I know learning is a part of life but I've done too much damage to justify it all as a learning experience or "growth".