Venting If things dont work out i'll just give up ( OD )

[LonelyPrince]

I've been trying to get better recently.
However, the more time passes and the more I see that people with my issues, here where i live, just don't make it.

I'm living as a sort of hikikomori at this point, a shut in.
I don't have a driver license and only have one small work experience due to me being young still, fresh out of school.

I'm already behind in life compared to my peers who go to university, work and have somewhat stable lives.

I dropped out from uni, can't find work and I'm clearly unstable and lonely.

If I don't manage to get a job these months and my life doesn't improve I think I'll just officially attempt.

Maybe I'll try hanging? Suffocation? Who knows.

I don't really wanna die, I just wanna hurt myself to the point that someone intervenes and helps me.

My psychiatrist will also be spilling the beans about my suicidal ideation to my mother and there is a high chance that everything will get worse after the revelation.
Knowing my parents, I don't think I'll be sympathized nor helped.

They have abandoned me emotionally since I was born

I have a xanax prescription, could I overdose on it? Yeah, i know it won't kill me due to meds not being a reliable ctb source, but would it land me in the hospital at least?
Xanax with other prescribed meds, alcohol and all that shit.

 

[socksnsandles]

uhh, youre gonna wanna recheck just how many xanax it would take to kill you. these drugs are designed to not kill you. youll just cause yourself damage and not die

 

[LonelyPrince]

uhh, youre gonna wanna recheck just how many xanax it would take to kill you. these drugs are designed to not kill you. youll just cause yourself damage and not die

I know that.

 

[BrainSplatter]

I don't really wanna die, I just wanna hurt myself to the point that someone intervenes and helps me. I have a xanax prescription, could I overdose on it? Yeah, i know it won't kill me due to meds not being a reliable ctb source, but would it land me in the hospital at least? Xanax with other prescribed meds, alcohol and all that shit.

Yes you could OD on Xanax and many other OTC drugs if you take more than what's prescribed or recommended and if you're intention isn't to die I suggest you seek immediate medical attention after to avoid any permanent damage or even prior. Yeah from personal experience I wouldn't OD ever again simply because I survived multiple times and my intention was always to die so it's a non viable method to CTB but yes it's possible to self harm by OD and land you in the hospital if that's what you're asking..