if i commit suicide , 1 nano-second after my brainstem dies i cease to exist forever. from my view point then nothing exists nor ever existed. Any memories i had are only stored in my brain. once that brain dies those memories can never be accessed again so all memory of me existing will be gone as if i never existed according to me or my viewpoint.. nothing will trully matter to me then after my brain dies. nothing matters to me now exc ept avoiding extreme suffering , unbearable pain bad problems and then other kinds of suffering and getting to my suicide asap. But after Death nothing will matter . the universe is expanding into nothingness everything will die and disapear foreever as if nothing ever existed. of course that doesn't solve my problems now . only me killing myself will solve my problems and avoid me suffering badly . so i can't wait for years to die and suffer naturally nor do i want to live another minute anyway even if i were a billionaire i wouldn't want to live another minute i can't stand existence and DNA based life and this world that much.
certainly when asleep in a dreamless sleep i don't exist to me , nothing exists to me all the time i'm sleeping without dreams. so why then don't people freak out when you are not existing while sleeping and nothing exists to you at that time during sleep? why is it so bad that you or nothing exists ? it's not to me non-existence is the best thing to me . the problem is that while alive i will exist again and be able to suffer continous unbearable pain . while after Death i won't exist ever again and so can't suffer any kind of pain. so they have most believing living is better than non-existence which is illogical to me . non-existence is better because i can't suffer extremely , nor feel unbearable pain , no bad memories , no problems ever : how is that bad ? it's not . to me existence is an abomination beyond words.
if i commit suicide , 1 nano-second after my brainstem dies i cease to exist forever. from my view point then nothing exists nor ever existed. Any memories i had are only stored in my brain. once that brain dies those memories can never be accessed again so all memory of me existing will be gone as if i never existed according to me or my viewpoint.
all thinking ,consciousness ,feelings etc are caused only by my brain. after that brain dies i can never have any thoughts , experiences again. and the best thing is i can't ever suffer unbearable pain, extreme suffering bad problems bad memories nothing bad ever again. so non-existence is the best thing by a trillion times better than anything.
certainly when asleep in a dreamless sleep i don't exist to me . where do i go? i disapear. so that i exist is only a construct of my brain. when that brain dies i can never exist again.
Joscha Bach says we don't continously exist even while alive.
"There is no whole self. Any of life's present situations is seamless and sufficient. Are you, as you ponder these disquietudes, anything more than an indifference gliding over the argument | make, or an appraisal of the opinions I expound? —JORGE LUIS BORGES"
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