Venting I'd like to feel what it's like to die or to be abused, but I'm too scared to try

[poqi2s2s]

These last few days I've been feeling little no nothing. I'd like to feel something that reminds me what it's like to be alive, I'd like to feel fear, to have a fight or flight response. I'd like myself to flinch at the slightest mention of a topic, I'd like to be traumatized and scarred for the rest of my life.

I'd like to be abused, I'd like to feel how my whole body slowly shuts down and dies out. Only to be alive and try it again.

Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I'm schizo even for the people here

 

[Alreadylate]

These last few days I've been feeling little no nothing. I'd like to feel something that reminds me what it's like to be alive, I'd like to feel fear, to have a fight or flight response. I'd like myself to flinch at the slightest mention of a topic, I'd like to be traumatized and scarred for the rest of my life.

I'd like to be abused, I'd like to feel how my whole body slowly shuts down and dies out. Only to be alive and try it again.

Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I'm schizo even for the people here

stop thinking such things, it is so easy that bad things happen... It doesn't take a lot to be abused, just go out

 

[poqi2s2s]

stop thinking such things, it is so easy that bad things happen... It doesn't take a lot to be abused, just go out

If you're male? Because I highly doubt it.

 

[lonergirl_26]

I feel the same.
I feel bad for craving abuse. But I just want to feel something and I'm tired of hurting myself.

 

[thaelyana]

These last few days I've been feeling little no nothing. I'd like to feel something that reminds me what it's like to be alive, I'd like to feel fear, to have a fight or flight response. I'd like myself to flinch at the slightest mention of a topic, I'd like to be traumatized and scarred for the rest of my life.

I'd like to be abused, I'd like to feel how my whole body slowly shuts down and dies out. Only to be alive and try it again.

Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I'm schizo even for the people here

Hi, I thought I was alone. Normally this kind of thought intervenes in people who have had deep traumas.. maybe you have some?

I don't have any and I also want to be mistreated, see how I would react etc. It's not even out of curiosity but out of desire. It's so strange to think like that, like yesterday I was walking down a long and deserted street ..I met shady men who whistled at me while I looked like a bum lol and I said to myself "I would like someone to catch me and hurt me". While damn I know that if it happens it would be horrible.

stop thinking such things, it is so easy that bad things happen... It doesn't take a lot to be abused, just go out

No I don't think it's something we have to ask, it must be sudden and then honestly, abuse outside is very rare. The abuses are generally done by our friends, family !! Rarely outside ..