I yelled at my dog. I deserve the most painful death.

[pleaseletmeperish]

I am very hungry. On my period which is very painful. I couldn't get up enough to cook and didn't have the money to order. I left my room to use the washroom attached to the other bedroom. The dog was in the bedroom, and was howling as she always does. She lunged at me and I lost my cool. Told her I hated her. Said I would rather die than talk to her again. I am so scared she understood what I was saying. God, she deserves much better. She deserves only love and goodness but I am too fucked up.

I keep hitting my forehead. I want to cut my wrist but I can't find a sharp enough object. I hate myself. I really deserve to die painfully.

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

I really think first you should separate yourself from anything that could be used to harm yourself.

Second, everyone has moments of frustration. You do not deserve to die a painful death over one brief moment of anger. I'm sure your dog forgives you.

 

[pleaseletmeperish]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

I really think first you should separate yourself from anything that could be used to harm yourself.

Second, everyone has moments of frustration. You do not deserve to die a painful death over one brief moment of anger. I'm sure your dog forgives you.

I love her so much. I hurt her by yelling such cruel things. I deserve to feel only pain