I yearn for death

[The.End]

I wake up every morning and think to myself " should today be the day" (the day I kill myself). And everyday I decide not to.

I'm not sure how many more times I can say no. One of these days I'm going to wake up and say "today is the day". I HAVE TO. I can't keep living like this.

Sorry for this pointless post but I just had to tell somebody how I feel.

 

[Larez]

Don't worry about posting pointless posts here, I guess people in our position shouldn't really worry about that too much. I know its easier said than done, but yeah.

The past couple of months was just SI kicking in at worst possible moments, gnawing away at my consciousness that just wants to return to non-existence, but the routine of working 10 hours a day, sleeping and yearning has played a huge part in keeping me numb despite my constant wish to, welp, end it all.

I feel you, but remember to not trust a sudden suicidal impulse. When THE day comes, we all will have to put some thinking into it. Deciding to live on and turning yourself into a veggie are two sides of the spectrum, really. Stay safe, even in death, as ironic as it sounds.