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khw777

khw777

Just trying to catch a bus!
Oct 18, 2019
235
To my beloved family. I'm so sorry for your pain and suffering because my actions. I always tried to take pride in everything I did. A lesson I learned from Dad. I'm sorry Nonnie and Daddy for disappointing you.

Dear Karen,
I was the happiest when we first got married. I always wanted to get married. You have been my one and only true love. Unfortunately I got sick and ruined our marriage. Karen I love you. please forgive me. I'm sorry for hurting you.

Dear Mother,
I never wanted to hurt you most of all. I always wanted to make you proud of me. I tried so hard to make that promise, but sadly I failed. I love you so much. Sorry for the pain and suffering I caused you.

I was never able to get well. My health problems and mental health problems never got better. I got to point I could no longer live and function in this life. Everything became painful. I didn't have the strength to continue. I could no longer sleep, and no matter how healthy I ate I always felt fatigued. I don't understand what happened but I could not get well no matter how hard I tried.

Dear Mike,
I love you bro! This is so hard to write. You have always been like a father figure to me, and the best big brother you could be. I admire your strength and courage. You have overcome you own pain and suffering from your back problems. You're a great father now.
I am sorry please forgive me.

Dear Traci and Betsy,
I love you both very much! I'm proud to have for my sisters. I know I have not been a good big brother. You reached out to me, and I did not return the favor. I'm sorry for not being a better big brother.i hope you can find in your hearts to forgive me.

Dear Barbara,
I apologise for all the problems I have caused. I tried to wait until I moved back into the duplex but I could not wait any longer. Please forgive me for the damages I have caused. I never meant to hurt anyone. I especially feel like I betrayed your trust in me. I have always tried to do the right thing for everyone. I have disappointed you, my entire family, and myself. You have been a great property manager. I appreciate all you have done for me. I'm sorry I hope you can forgive me.
 
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reapandsow918

reapandsow918

Let the waves take me
Nov 6, 2019
191
Deep note bro. I support either paths you decide to choose.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
Wonderfully written, i hope they all feel at peace with your words.
 
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Are you lost too?

Are you lost too?

Operator, well let's forget about this call
Oct 18, 2019
361
if you don't mind me asking, which illness do you have?
Beautiful. I can imagine your pain to write them.
I hope it will help them be at peace.
I'm also sorry for the circumstances that made you get to this point. I hope you're able to find peace.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,443
It's a really powerful note :hug: I wish you peace.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Wonderful note. You did a great job.
 
RecycledAtoms

RecycledAtoms

Electrode
Nov 9, 2019
108
Wow! That sounds all too familiar to notes I have tried to write in the past. Big reality check for me right now. I didn't realize just how truly suicidal I had become! Thank you for sharing this. Your words really resonated with me.
 
charlie_z

charlie_z

Student
Apr 30, 2018
184
I just read your note. My heart is breaking. Peace, brother. Peace.
 
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