I just want to be held while I go. The idea of going alone is terrifying to me. I'm already very ill and i've been alone my whole life. I hate that in the end i'll be alone too.
Labyrinth
There is no escaping the burden of existence
- Jan 8, 2024
- 217
And probably what awaits you after death -- if anything awaits you -- will also be extremely lonely. I don't know if it comforts you, but many of us on this site live in the same situation.
pinkydrinky
Member
- Apr 4, 2024
- 17
Death awaits us all, so in that case everyone will be alone. I don't believe that's true, you won't be lonely because you won't be conscious to feel the emotion of loneliness. Were you lonely before you were born? Nope.
slamjoetry
Nobody likes you when you're 23
- Apr 19, 2024
- 95
I'm really afraid to die alone too. It's like no matter what I choose, life or death, I will never get even a single moment of peace or companionship. I'm hoping to run into somebody who's also planning to CTB, so we can do it together. But I'm really doubtful that it's gonna happen. I'm sorry there's not anything comforting that I can say, but I understand you.
Leo._.
Member
- Aug 15, 2024
- 28
I will genuinely hold you psychologically for the next 3 seconds
. This song is from me to you 
genoke
Member
- Aug 13, 2024
- 77
That's the scariest part about all of this for me. Humans are terrified to die alone. I wish I knew the reason.
I don't want to abandon or hurt anyone, but I dont want to die alone either.
The truth is we all die alone.
Another truth is if I had the gun I wanted I'd do it immediately with zero fear.
I'm just under-gunned and afraid ill survive. I'm so tired of living I don't care about anything anymore. I'm just f'ng undergunned. I want a full size 357 or 44. I am undergunned and trapped and my depression and isolation gets worse every day. My spirit is just withering away. I get nothing done. I go nowhere. I might be literally too depressed and exhausted to get this shit done with.
Without the tools I want I'm scared and sad ill have to take this risk alone. I'm not scared to die alone.
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huntermellow
another bpd death statistic
- Aug 6, 2024
- 151
me too… i just imagine laying on someone's chest and being held while i go… i wish i could have that
I would like the idea to leave with someone but afraid to speak up & vocalize it
Steff1337
Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
- Jun 21, 2024
- 633
SpamMusubi
Member
- Jul 25, 2024
- 31
the intimacy would be nice, as i've never shared that with another human, and probably never will
sweetcreep
reincarnating as a worm
- Jul 21, 2024
- 220
i have a friend who knows what i'm going to do. i've been very tempted to ask them to be with me while i do it, just to hold my hand and tuck me in. but i dont want to traumatize them or get them in trouble with the law. and i just lost someone that i love because they didnt want to wake up one day and see that i was gone. so i feel even more alone now. it would be lovely to know someone who also wants to go so that we could be there for each other.
