I wish I was normal

[fallingbehind]

I wish I was born normal. I wish I had wants, desires and dreams like everybody else. I wish I was smart, I wish I had drive. I wish I could understand what makes life so appealing to others. I desperately want to understand why other people can function normally and actually see the purpose in living.

This will never happen. It will always be difficult for me to wake up, I will always feel miserable doing anything. I will never be normal.

 

[kopebaldy]

"Normal" is a funny word.

To most, it's natural.

To some, it's a luxury.

To a few, it's impossible.

 

[Amile]

Same...
I wish I had been born as an actual human.
I only had one shot at life, and it was wasted on this creature.

 

[Holu]

Idek what normal means really. I feel like I've tried and failed enough to be normal. I'm sick of trying, I just want it all to end.

 

[mantis]

I understand how you feel. I guess what's "normal" is different for everyone. In a way, on this forum, you are normal.

 

[Andarna]

I understand that feeling.

I too would like to be normal, but unfortunately, I never was. Even as a child, I felt like something was wrong with me. I was never grateful for being here, for experiencing things, for existing. I could never imagine myself in a future where I had a normal, happy life. A future where I had a career, a partner, and children. I don't know why. I must have been born deficient.

I look with envy at the people around me, at how they cope and how they enjoy life.
Having a healthy mind must be great.

 

[unluckysadness]

I wish I was normal too (I mean : not being disabled). We are a lot here having the same thoughts.
Being different is okay to me. But suffering too much and feeling like an alien is not okay.
So many things I'd like to do, but that's impossible when you're disabled)
I think that life is either a lottery either a karma reaction

 

[princexhhn]

I relate so bad. Raising a glass to both of us and everyone else in these replies. I've been a whole jumble of mess since forever, always feeling a disconnect with others no matter how "close" I am with them. Alien invading planet earth. I always failed to understand how people can have dreams and a drive and a will to live, it was as if I was studying anthropology on my own species. It's part of why I want to study psychology— I want to understand because it just never happened for me like it did for everyone else. How strange it is to be anything at all