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rotten_hrtz

rotten_hrtz

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Nov 25, 2025
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All my life I've struggled to change my body, from diets to starving myself, but it never works. I'm not obese, but I'm not slim either. I'm in a limbo where I'm too fat to be considered pretty and not fat enough to be considered obese (I don't know if that makes sense).

But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese. It affected how I see myself. I don't know if I'm pretty or ugly, but I don't want to live feeling like this anymore.

Many people around me often say I'm pretty, but I don't believe it. They only say it so I don't think about it. I've thought that all my confidence problems will end when I finally end my life. Maybe then I won't feel so ugly and I can just rest.
 
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Alumina

Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
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do you really think you are ugly and if you do, why?
 
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do you really think you are ugly and if you do, why?
Possibly because the father kept telling this person this
But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese.
It's honestly so painful when you know WHY your hurt but still can't overcome it, I myself falls on underweight BMI and no matter what I do I can't get 50 Kg
 
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Alumina

Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
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Possibly because the father kept telling this person this
what i mean is like does SHE think it and if so is it because SHE really thinks she's fat or is she gaslighted by the father? i mean a lot of people (myself included before) are just shamed but beside are not that fat
ngl after all ik it's a dumb question, most aren't objective about it bc of the bullying
 
fadedghost

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Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
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All my life I've struggled to change my body, from diets to starving myself, but it never works. I'm not obese, but I'm not slim either. I'm in a limbo where I'm too fat to be considered pretty and not fat enough to be considered obese (I don't know if that makes sense).

But it's all my dad's fault. My dad always made fun of my body and called me a cow or obese. It affected how I see myself. I don't know if I'm pretty or ugly, but I don't want to live feeling like this anymore.

Many people around me often say I'm pretty, but I don't believe it. They only say it so I don't think about it. I've thought that all my confidence problems will end when I finally end my life. Maybe then I won't feel so ugly and I can just rest.
It sounds like you are probably normal weight and perceive yourself incorrectly. If you aren't a normal weight, GLP-1s like Ozempic work really well and the prices are coming down dramatically.
 
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what i mean is like does SHE think it and if so is it because SHE really thinks she's fat or is she gaslighted by the father? i mean a lot of people (myself included before) are just shamed but beside are not that fat
ngl after all ik it's a dumb question, most aren't objective about it bc of the bullying
It should be related, her father kept telling her that and because of that she starts to think for herself that she is indeed that. We better wait for her response
 
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rotten_hrtz

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Nov 25, 2025
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¿De verdad crees que eres feo/a? Y si es así, ¿por qué?
Yes, I believe it, and I believe it because I grew up hearing negative opinions from the only person I loved most, my dad.
Debería estar relacionado, su padre no dejaba de decírselo y por eso ella empieza a pensar por sí misma que, en efecto, es así. Será mejor que esperemos su respuesta.
Yes, you were right about everything you said :)
Parece que tienes un peso normal y que tu percepción de ti mismo es errónea. Si no tienes un peso normal, los GLP-1 como Ozempic funcionan muy bien y sus precios están bajando drásticamente.
Thanks for the ideas, but to be honest, the Ozempic thing scares me a little.
 
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eggsausagerice

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Apr 21, 2025
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If you aren't a normal weight, GLP-1s like Ozempic work really well and the prices are coming down dramatically.

it feels callous to recommend ozempic to lose weight when that's just what celebrities are doing to lose it. i don't think most people can afford it and you won't know the side effects you get from ozempic until you start taking it. it's like people telling someone to take birth control if they have pmdd. i have a similar opinion about my own weight where i'm not skinny enough to be skinny and not fat enough to be fat, so i kind of hate myself for being chubby but too depressed to exercise. i really hate dieting culture on social media because thinking about restricting my calories just to be accepted by people makes me anxious. with ozempic becoming popular as a weight loss drug, i feel like we're going back to the weight watchers era.
 
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Nwaru

Nwaru

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May 29, 2026
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I feel you so much.

My entire life, both at school and within my family, I was bullied because I was a little overweight. At home, my father would call me a "fat cow" whenever he saw me eating anything.

When I was three years old, I tried to imitate something I had seen my mother do. She struggled with anorexia, and I remember running to the bathroom, sticking my fingers down my throat, and repeating, "Like Mommy."

Today, my weight doesn't really change, but I somehow feel stuck in between. I'm too big to be considered thin, yet too thin to be considered fat. It often feels like I don't belong anywhere.

I genuinely understand what you're going through, and honestly, I don't have any advice to offer.

I just want you to know that you're not alone.

I'm sending you all my support while you're going through this hell.
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

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Apr 21, 2025
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So you're saying you didnt try ozempic ?
why is ozempic considered a cure all and easy solution to body dysmorphia or bullying? it's like saying that someone's choosing to be fat if they're not taking it because it's so readily available. if i can't afford it or be prescribe it by a doctor, am i meant to imagine what my life would be like on ozempic?
 
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