I Wish I Could See My Funeral

[body_snatcher]

It sucks I'll never get to see people react to my death, or talk about my life. I think that's what drew me so much to CTB when I was a kid, was this urge to force people to contemplate my life and how they treated me. I'll never get to watch people cry over my death. It really bothers me. It's not that I want to make people suffer, I just want to know their deepest feelings about me and I'll probably never know because they probably won't reveal them until it's too late. I hope I don't sound too selfish.

 

[scary]

No, that's a normal feeling when you're going through something like suicidal ideation. Wanting to be seen and having people care about you is just what most people experience, we're a social species after all. I don't think that makes you selfish or anything