Story I was and I'm one of those kids (wanting to go home)

[letied]

I have read about people who since childhood want to go home, out of here. I was and I am one of them.

I remember when I was little (I was less than 8 years old) I told my father that I wanted to go home. We were in the living room so he didn't understand what the fuck I was saying.

Me: I want to go home.
Him:We are at home.
Me:No, I want to go home.
Him: But we are at home.
Me: I want to go home *I start crying and running to my bed*.

Leaving aside all the abusive shit and bad luck I've been through, I always felt lost here.

Also my father was abusive and the lucky bastard died 5 months ago.

 

[blueclover_.]

I have read about people who since childhood want to go home, out of here. I was and I am one of them.

I remember when I was little (I was less than 8 years old) I told my father that I wanted to go home. We were in the living room so he didn't understand what the fuck I was saying.

Me: I want to go home.
Him:We are at home.
Me:No, I want to go home.
Him: But we are at home.
Me: I want to go home *I start crying and running to my bed*.

Leaving aside all the abusive shit and bad luck I've been through, I always felt lost here.

Also my father was abusive and the lucky bastard died 5 months ago.

Do you think eternal void is the place you can feel like home? I hope you find the peace you are looking for, one way or the other.

Dance on his grave ;)

 

[letied]

Do you think eternal void is the place you can feel like home? I hope you find the peace you are looking for, one way or the other.

Dance on his grave ;)

I hope so. If I get lucky I will know today.

I can't. He is just a pile of ashes in a bag inside a wooden box.

 

[noaccount]

Hey that makes sense to me, we are here if you want to talk. Also for what it's worth mushrooms or DMT may lead one to a dream-state that's a lot like remembering how-it-was-before-life...?

 

[FuneralCry]

This world has never felt like my home, so I understand. I do not belong in this world, it has never felt right me being alive. I belong in the eternal nothingness. Ever since I was young, death has been comforting to me. I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.