I want to leave

[burner4242]

I'm ready to leave I think. I don't like the idea of suicide but I know if there was certainty about what happens and where we go when we die I'd be ok with it. I started abilify over a month ago and I just increased my dosage and idk if it's the side effect of increased suicidal thoughts or if it's my actual mental state. I just know I don't want to be here anymore. I have almost no real friends or real reason to stay. I hate my job and I hate where I live and I can't afford my own house so I have to suck it up and deal with whati have. I'm so miserable. I tried idk what else to do.