Venting I want to go home

[thelostautistic]

Since I was a child I've always had this longing feeling of wanting to go home. Not my actual home just somewhere else. Somewhere that I felt I belonged. I still want to go home and now that I'm older I think that means ending my life. I don't know what to do really. I'm not ready to go yet but sticking around is getting so hard and I'm tired. Being here hurts because I feel so out of place. Does anyone else experience this feeling?

 

[WalmartSoap]

Yes. Oftentimes, especially in hard moments, I find myself wishing I could "go home." Even if I'm at home. I just think I rarely feel the sensation of being "home" in that comfortable, cozy way home should be. And it's been so long that I've wanted this feeling, it's starting to seem impossible. If home in all its love and it's comfort doesn't exist for me, what's the point?

 

[behindtheveil]

I most certainly do, especially after my mom left for there a few years ago. This life is not the real home but seems like a school or jail where every day is just a struggle and a prayer that soon I'll get to leave. I take this life as a platform where we all are passengers waiting for our train home. What we do with our time here is upto us. Let's do our best to claim some good points, as I would love tp travel in first class.

 

[Ben111]

Since I was a child I've always had this longing feeling of wanting to go home. Not my actual home just somewhere else. Somewhere that I felt I belonged. I still want to go home and now that I'm older I think that means ending my life. I don't know what to do really. I'm not ready to go yet but sticking around is getting so hard and I'm tired. Being here hurts because I feel so out of place. Does anyone else experience this feeling?

Yes...I've always felt i never belonged 2 this wrld and I have been yearning to go home ever since I had my spiritual awakening..i just wish euthanasia was legalized throughout the wrld

 

[dinkledee]

Oh God I feel this so hard. I have no idea what home is, but I long for it so terribly. I really hate my parents but when I cry I often think that I want my mother, that I want my father, that I want to be small (even though that was a really horrible period in my life) and be at home again...

 

[hello707]

All the time... When I was a kid I wanted to be anywhere but the "physical home" because I would get beat and threatened there. Now it's hard to see the positive of anything no matter where I am. My dreams show me alternate realities and "futures", so I believe when a "me" in another reality dies, their consciousness merges into me or one of my bodies. If I keep dying I will eventually be whole again. I will be home.