Help I want to get worse.

[ill_]

If i get worse then people will notice me, i want auditory and visual hallucinations, spurs of violence and monotone emotion. i still sometimes feel happy and i don't deserve that. i have blades and plenty of prescription drugs in my medicine cabinet, and 300+mg of prozac, i'm not able to get non prescription or illegal drugs. If theres a way to be worse without drugs that is preferred, but not necessary. i can give more info if needed, thanks.

 

[58Alice85]

I hear voices the entire day, as well as mental images, as i described in my thread. I think it is strange how anyone would want this. Remember, this is involuntary and you can never turn it off.

 

[nyotei_]

schizoaffective here. I don't want to help a fellow sufferer actively get worse, but I empathize and struggle with the same symptoms and thought processes.

the "methods" you've put on the table are considered non-methods here, and nobody on this forum will endorse or help with them. here are the posts you'll often run into that explain exactly why:

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Why ODs Fail Miserably (A Guide)

There's still a lot of questions and inquiries about ODs, and people asking about what things may facilitate a successful attempt. Let's be clear, ODs are rarely fatal. Why? For a couple of reasons: (1) modern medications are designed to be very safe, as manufacturers aim to avoid deaths that...

sanctioned-suicide.net

here's a song I have used to cope though. I am sorry for your suffering.

 

[ill_]

thank for responding, i also appreciate another msi fan

I hear voices the entire day, as well as mental images, as i described in my thread. I think it is strange how anyone would want this. Remember, this is involuntary and you can never turn it off.

i just kind of want to fuck myself over even more.

 

[happy2die]

I hear voices the entire day, as well as mental images, as i described in my thread. I think it is strange how anyone would want this. Remember, this is involuntary and you can never turn it off.

When people want to get worse, that's not usually what they mean. Most of the time, it comes from feeling invalid and unheard in their current state, and being in a worse condition would actually make people understand the point that they're at, even if it means "getting worse."

 

[reb]

nice pfp

 

[ill_]

When people want to get worse, that's not usually what they mean. Most of the time, it comes from feeling invalid and unheard in their current state, and being in a worse condition would actually make people understand the point that they're at, even if it means "getting worse."

YES this is what i'm getting at

 

[happy2die]

YES this is what i'm getting at

unfortunately speaking from experience