Ok well this sounds really twisted.
But I want to ruin myself.
Because who am I if not my illness? I feel like I lost all my personality, all my dreams and talent.
The only thing that I have right now is my illness, which I really don't know what is really anymore.
My therapist says that what it says on paper really doesn't matter in a sense of diagnosis, so she just wrote me F41.2 (mixed anxiety and depression). I do not feel like it is right since I have so many other symptoms which I don't know if I am a bad person since I do not have a diagnosis. Like, I have ocd, bpd, adhd, autism symptoms, but not enough to diagnose me since I do not fit enough symptoms.
God, I hate myself.
I wish I can get some illness and die soon.
But I want to ruin myself.
Because who am I if not my illness? I feel like I lost all my personality, all my dreams and talent.
The only thing that I have right now is my illness, which I really don't know what is really anymore.
My therapist says that what it says on paper really doesn't matter in a sense of diagnosis, so she just wrote me F41.2 (mixed anxiety and depression). I do not feel like it is right since I have so many other symptoms which I don't know if I am a bad person since I do not have a diagnosis. Like, I have ocd, bpd, adhd, autism symptoms, but not enough to diagnose me since I do not fit enough symptoms.
God, I hate myself.
I wish I can get some illness and die soon.
