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museumofthunder

museumofthunder

my final bellyache
Sep 9, 2023
17
Idk, its a weird place to be. Ive been on here long enough, on and off for a while now. Some days im really happy to be here, some im definitely not. Lately, its been more not. I dont have a career, stuck at a job i hate. I dont know what to do with my life. My room is a mess. Cant drive. Idk, everything is accumulating. Im just tired.

So ofc my brain's coping mechanism is to finally end it all already because i've already been here long enough than i even planned to be in the first place. But this stupid piece of me has hope, so i keep on hanging. But its starting to fade too. I dont even know where id start, planning to do this. It would make some people upset but ive been upsrt for a long time now too.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
157
Yeah, I'm in this situation too. It's really frustrating. I'm depressed and tired of fighting. I just want to go. But there's this piece of me that has hope and won't let me just ctb. Hope for what? I don't know.
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
217
Same. I want to CBT but for some reason am hesitant to actually do it. Fear of failure fear of the unknown and what happens next. I wish someone would just do it for me.
 
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