
nowizard
sleepy
- Oct 9, 2025
- 1
ah this might be counterproductive, given the fact im halfway done with planning my way to go, though i cant help but look away from my screen and want someone to notice how deep im stuck in this hole. i want someone to see how many hours i spend on this site, reading through methods, researching, fact checking, how desperate i've become - and actually care. i know it won't happen, and if someone would notice i'd just end up in a ward. it's just silly wishful thinking of me wanting someone to care for once. i hope ill get rid of these thoughts soon, i'm worried they'll disrupt the process of properly ctb.. anyways yeah i just felt like sharing that, thank you for reading if you did :)