I want CTB today

[SadGirl]

I'm depressed, and I want to commit CTB. The method would be hanging. I don't want to do it at home. I don't want my mother to see me hanging, cold and blue.

 

[FishRain3469]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point, and I completely understand. I'd Rather my parents not see my head blown off..

Why are ya depressed? I understand if you don't want to say, but Sometimes that's Exactly what you need to do. Just let that Shitt out, Let it go.. Idk just a little idea.

Thoughts and prayers to you, Always. ♥

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
however you decide
I wish you the best

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point and you have to go through this.

I hope you find peace

 

[unluckysadness]

I totally understand you. I'm completely depressed too (and isolated, no friends, rare disease, constant pain, mental illness). I wish us the best. Never been so close to ctb. I'm scared too for the people who will find my body. So fucking unfair...

 

[SadGirl]

I totally understand you. I'm completely depressed too (and isolated, no friends, rare disease, constant pain, mental illness). I wish us the best. Never been so close to ctb. I'm scared too for the people who will find my body. So fucking unfair...

We really have a lot in common, if you want to call me to talk, I'm here.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

sending love to you unmet friend. we're here for you.

 

[unluckysadness]

We really have a lot in common, if you want to call me to talk, I'm here.

many thanks just want to find peace. i'm almost 45 and ill since i'm 16. got worse, some relief sometimes but now disabled, cannot work, never could have friends or partner. i consider it's time to go now. i gave life too many chances. too much hardships, traumas, pain, sadness, loneliness. i believe in heaven, let's hope it has a place for me (i consider myself as a kind person). this place on earth is not for highly sensitive people. glad i have no kids. best thing i've done in this miserable life (i'm serious when i say that). your life seem very miserable too. all my prayers for you and everyone on this forum

 

[iamsadandinnocent]

I also don't want my family to see my dead body or find my body, sometimes I think I should disappear and die some place far away, but then I think that, they will try to find me their whole life, I wish I didn't had family so I could just disappear, I wish you get better and live a good life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just wish to be free from all the suffering as well, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Marcy1024]

I don't want my mother to see me hanging, cold and blue.

I totally relate that fear

 

[SadGirl]

many thanks just want to find peace. i'm almost 45 and ill since i'm 16. got worse, some relief sometimes but now disabled, cannot work, never could have friends or partner. i consider it's time to go now. i gave life too many chances. too much hardships, traumas, pain, sadness, loneliness. i believe in heaven, let's hope it has a place for me (i consider myself as a kind person). this place on earth is not for highly sensitive people. glad i have no kids. best thing i've done in this miserable life (i'm serious when i say that). your life seem very miserable too. all my prayers for you and everyone on this forum

I'm 26 years old, I recently lost my father, but I have my mother and I love her. So it's a little hard to leave like this! Be well, my dear, I'm here for you. Life really hasn't been very kind to me either.

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm 26 years old, I recently lost my father, but I have my mother and I love her. So it's a little hard to leave like this! Be well, my dear, I'm here for you. Life really hasn't been very kind to me either.

Thank you very much i'm so sorry for your father and i understand for your mum life should not be so hard. i still believe in heaven and all these things. I'm sure your father is in a good place. a better place than here in any case. i think planet earth is the worst place to born. one of my fears is to reincarnate on earth

 

[SadGirl]

Thank you very much i'm so sorry for your father and i understand for your mum life should not be so hard. i still believe in heaven and all these things. I'm sure your father is in a good place. a better place than here in any case. i think planet earth is the worst place to born. one of my fears is to reincarnate on earth

Well, I follow Umbanda, and I believe in reincarnation and spiritual things. I think that's part of my fear of CTB.

 

[unluckysadness]

Well, I follow Umbanda, and I believe in reincarnation and spiritual things. I think that's part of my fear of CTB.

I didn't know what is Umbanda but it seems very interessant. So many religions and afterlife theories but only ONE truth. I believe in destiny too. When it's our time to die, it's our time (including suicide) but it is a personal point of view. Last day i went to church to say to God "forgive me for what i'm going to do but i suffer too much". We're good people here on SaSu. When you are living in hell all your life, it makes no sense to finish into hell because we "choose" suicide. I think it's not a choice but a death which is consequence of a disease called depression. I'm catholic and sometimes priest commit suicide. Just a tragic fate, that's all

 

[SadGirl]

I didn't know what is Umbanda but it seems very interessant. So many religions and afterlife theories but only ONE truth. I believe in destiny too. When it's our time to die, it's our time (including suicide) but it is a personal point of view. Last day i went to church to say to God "forgive me for what i'm going to do but i suffer too much". We're good people here on SaSu. When you are living in hell all your life, it makes no sense to finish into hell because we "choose" suicide. I think it's not a choice but a death which is consequence of a disease called depression. I'm catholic and sometimes priest commit suicide. Just a tragic fate, that's all

A great comment makes me detach me more from religious dogmas, not that I want not to be religious. But let me go from this part that those who commit suicide, do not rest, have no peace and etc ...