Venting I wanna shoot my brain out

[KattinKai!]

I have no other ways to get rid of the way I think... And I NEED. THAT. GUN. I NEED IT BAD... I NEED IT SO BAD. IT JUST HAS TO STOP THE WAY I THINK. I NEED TO GET A GUN AND I NEED TO SHOOT MY BRAINS OUT IN A LAKE...

 

[Liebestod]

I have a gun and believe me doing it is not as easy as people think it is.

 

[KattinKai!]

I have a gun and believe me doing it is not as easy as people think it is.

I know that, but I've got nothing else! If overdosing 6 times won't work and the other methods take too long, THEN I HAVE TO SHOOT MYSELF. I HAVE TO.

 

[socksnsandles]

I have a gun and believe me doing it is not as easy as people think it is.

agreed.

 

[KattinKai!]

I know that, but I've got nothing else! If overdosing 6 times won't work and the other methods take too long, THEN I HAVE TO SHOOT MYSELF. I HAVE TO.

I know some can't do it, but for me, I think it just might be the best thing I've got. I know it can be hard, but when you have no other way to stop living a life you don't want, especially when all you do is hurt people or get hurt, what can you do?

 

[looking4partner]

I have a gun and believe me doing it is not as easy as people think it is.

I know. I think Survival Instinct has activated :( And I cannot choose the time that I do it, but somehow the chronic obsessive looping ideation stops right when I am just about to try & have the right circumstances in place (privacy) which I am not able to plan for. And then I go back to chronic obsessive ideation and despair needing to end it and leave as soon as I don't have the right circumstances anymore :(

And last time, I started imagining people's reactions & all the potential failure possibilities if it goes wrong were racing through my head. And I still don't know how to aim at the correct place/angle in head which is extremely important and struggle with coordination and chronic daily fear already :(

 

[littlecutecorpse]

i wish. technically i'm incredibly lucky to be living in an area w/ lax gun laws but i can't really secure one for myself because i'm broke, still living with family, and probably got a MH record anyways. the frustration is real

 

[lawlietsph]

i feel you.
we have no guns in Europe which i'm happy about in general, but i wouldn't mind if someone could shoot me in the stupid head
i want to stop existing so bad