Always when I feel like I cannot endure this shit much longer I visit this forum. And somehow there are many in even more horrible circumstances than me. Which in some way frightening because it can always become worse but it also lets me appreciate what I currently have.
I think most average people don't know how horrible life can become. We instead shall live in the shadows not to traumadump on them ruining their mood. For many depression and sadness is something temporary but there are people who cannot escape it. The rock bottom of some people is for other people their average daily life.
I am sick of playing this game. But honestly becoming acute suicidal would make everything worse. My grandma is on the edge of death/another stroke. The message I tried to kill myself would kill her. And the health of my parents is also very fragile. The clinic stay in this clinic for acute suicidal people was scary as fuck. I thought I triggered someone into committing suicide for 24 hours.
I think many people cannot imagine how life can get better. But for some life actually gets better. Even when the circumstances look horrendous and the chances to recover are small.. There are cases, statistics proves that and there are some stories of members in this forum. But the truth also is for some it does not get better. What to do with these people? Lock them up in a psych ward forever? Some people pretend such cases would not exist. And life is easier if we fate out such people. They are too sad to think about. Lets treat them as pariahs. And when they find an online community where they feel understood and feel compassion publish one hit piece after another demonizing the autonomy to end one's life. Despite the fact people who are determined to kill themselves are already criminalized and pressured to use inhuman/undignified methods that likely traumatize others. Suicides have occured since humandkind started. Way before the internet emerged. Suicide cannot be eradicated. And in free, open and democratic societies it should be the right of a human to end one's life if the suffering is unbearable.
I think most average people don't know how horrible life can become. We instead shall live in the shadows not to traumadump on them ruining their mood. For many depression and sadness is something temporary but there are people who cannot escape it. The rock bottom of some people is for other people their average daily life.
I am sick of playing this game. But honestly becoming acute suicidal would make everything worse. My grandma is on the edge of death/another stroke. The message I tried to kill myself would kill her. And the health of my parents is also very fragile. The clinic stay in this clinic for acute suicidal people was scary as fuck. I thought I triggered someone into committing suicide for 24 hours.
I think many people cannot imagine how life can get better. But for some life actually gets better. Even when the circumstances look horrendous and the chances to recover are small.. There are cases, statistics proves that and there are some stories of members in this forum. But the truth also is for some it does not get better. What to do with these people? Lock them up in a psych ward forever? Some people pretend such cases would not exist. And life is easier if we fate out such people. They are too sad to think about. Lets treat them as pariahs. And when they find an online community where they feel understood and feel compassion publish one hit piece after another demonizing the autonomy to end one's life. Despite the fact people who are determined to kill themselves are already criminalized and pressured to use inhuman/undignified methods that likely traumatize others. Suicides have occured since humandkind started. Way before the internet emerged. Suicide cannot be eradicated. And in free, open and democratic societies it should be the right of a human to end one's life if the suffering is unbearable.
