I think Friday is my judgement day

[I'm exhausted]

I've been trying to research for the right time, right place, right method.

The longer I just research, I just start feeling indifferent with everything. Living and dying.

I think I just need to do it. I had a plan to get a hotel for two days just to stuff myself with food that I love but I might just kill myself.

Impulse is the only way I can go. And I think Friday will give me that opportunity.

I know I can't do the SN method, I don't think nitrogen is an option because I may not have a room to use it let alone money. So I think I'll do the blood choke method or if I'm extra impulsive to take all the courage and jump off a building or a bridge. I mean I always wanted to skydive so...

If I do it Friday, I just wanted to thank everyone here who have been sweet and understanding. I'm sorry to those I have overwhelmed with my life story.

I feel like there's more I need to say but I don't know if it's my fear of forgetting things (OCD) or because I'm exhausted, literally and figuratively. I haven't been able to eat, drink and sleep right.

I'm in so much pain.

 

[Azizw126]

We all feel you here. I hope you find relief and peace very soon by whatever you choose for your self.

 

[Ark]

I hope you find the peace you deserve. Keep us updated and if you want to talk, many here are more than willing, including myself.

 

[Hotsackage]

EVERYDAY IS MY JUDGEMENT DAY

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Please don't be impulsive. In the moment of facing death you should be in peace knowing that your suffering is going to end, if that's what you choose. Think clear.