I really miss the old SaSu

[Catch-22]

Was about to say the same as the OP.. last year at the end of September I was ready to go had everything planned and then I got a message through Messenger that I thought was something at last minute to save my life.. idiot I was! Cuz staying around the next 10 months has got me severe narcissistic abuse and then I had surgery which came out with the worst prognosis and left me with another agonizing health condition except this one nickname the suicide disease. Hahaha fuck you universe! I knew you'd fuck me over at least one more time but twice?! I don't have a chance in hell I know I can't even take care of myself so my mom's looking at put me away and assisted living.. well of course I would never have a chance to leave then.my SN is over a year old now and my Metro expired in February but I'm pretty sure it's still good. I might have a chance coming up. I'm much older than most people on this community and I can't wait for my miracle to come but it never did only things got worse and I didn't even think that that was possible. Now my opportunity might come up in a couple weeks and I have to get my head back in a mindset. I spent every day every waking hour on here for 10 months to get myself and that headspace and then it left no matter how much pain because SI is so strong. How strong is it?! Enough that I endured 10 months with severely narcissistic abuse and living with another crippling illness. I guess my body was trying to save itself. I know fucking crazy! But true! But to get back what the OP said.. it seems like a ghost town. Not that I want it to be packed with people wanting to die because I don't however I don't see the regulars and it doesn't have that feel like it felt like home or maybe it's just because I've been away for so long. It is hard to be on here daily every waking hour but I got myself there and I miss it enduring severe narcissistic abuse I mean full out in NPD and maybe even a little antisocial in there AKA sociopath. I'm so beat up after that.. and the psycho still persist to try to beat me down more. I have such trauma from that I shake 24/7. I don't know what the percentage of people on here believe in God or good or evil but I can tell you whatever has had its grip on me like some type of curse with the one thing bad happening after another I can tell you it is evil because if he was sent to me in my messenger perfect timing on purpose to keep me around to meet me suffer more. So I guess if you believe in evil then you have to believe in good but I like to know where was my intervention?! Where was God intervening to keep any of this nasty stuff that's happened to me I don't know maybe when I get to the other side I will find that out.

Anyone made it to the end of my long ass story I appreciate it!

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

 

[watereyes]

Would I count? I see SS as pre-Tentacruel video and After Tentacruel video cause that one fucking video caused the site to permanently gain more traction and to me have too much threads in suicide discussion, oh and incels.
I felt there was more in depth discussion before. TAW122 is still around though, they're cool, and an old member. The cat guy's cool too, the one with the pusheen profile pic. There's also Locked and Loaded? Is she still here? I swear I saw her recently.

yeah pretty much. i was thinking a little earlier, 2020 when i joined. but yeah you can sum it up to pre-tentacrul.

@Pluto

@locked*n*loaded

Yes.

@TAW122

 

[watereyes]

YOUUUUUUUU I MISS YOUUUU <333 still saving up for a trip so I can see you again!!!

 

[RadiantNumber]

Ha. I'm actually still in touch with Marquis. As for the other guy, he's completely disappeared without a trace.

How is he? After this witch-hunt must be hard

 

[Pluto]

 

[Dayrain]

How is he? After this witch-hunt must be hard

Ask him.

I'm back as an Advisor

Hey all, It's been a while since I've posted here, and I wanted to say a few words. I'm one of the original founders of the forum. I stepped away in 2021 after being doxxed by the New York Times and was forced to resign at that time. Recently, I've returned in an advisory capacity to support...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

Ha. I'm actually still in touch with Marquis.

In a way we all are again, since he posted this thread.

@watereyes I don't know what that meme means.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

Perhaps a few years from now any remaining users, who registered in 2024-25, will be saying the same?

It's the way of things. Things are always the best when your mates are there haha.

 

[watereyes]

@watereyes I don't know what that meme means.

basically means respect :)

 

[MrOptions]

Shout out to all three real ogs of sasu.

 

[OkOkOk]

It used to be so active, especially in chat. Some members were kinda legendary, like they left an impression on absolutely everybody (shoutout to you, crypticat/cryptic_egg).
There were people I had such a connection with, that I even met irl, traveling accross the world just for that one little connection. I can't believe its all a distant memory now. Only a few years have passed, its nothing.

Its weird cause I was more suicidal than ever in my life, but I still miss these times. If I could go back I would know how to save myself in an instant. But today I am completely lost as always. Maybe future me would know how to save me, or maybe she'll be dead :)

If you're an og, give me a shoutout in the comments :)

How does one find this group?