I Pity You……

[starboy2k]

I pity the suicidal folks who can't/don't want to kill themselves because of family/friends/partners or pets. Thats a whole different mental prison I would hate to be trapped in.

 

[thehorizons]

I pity the suicidal folks who can't/don't want to kill themselves because of family/friends/partners or pets. Thats a whole different mental prison I would hate to be trapped in.

I'm the opposite, I want to off myself because of family. I have oral cancer (not severely symptomatic yet) and a neurological disorder that prevents me from sleeping normally. I would be a burden to them if I don't get assisted suicide or CTB when it becomes full-blown cancer.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Butterfly-death]

Does it make me a bad person if I have family, friends, and my cat yet I still want to ctb and plan to at some point?

A part of me feels guilty but also it's too hard to live for others so honestly none of them are holding me back from ctb

Those people are a better person than me because I can't imagine suffering for the sake of others. They're so much stronger than me for that, I admire it

 

[Macedonian1987]

I pity the suicidal folks who can't/don't want to kill themselves because of family/friends/partners or pets. Thats a whole different mental prison I would hate to be trapped in.

This prison as you call it, kept me prisioner for more than 10 years, but not any more. Everyone's endurance has it's limits and im reaching the limit to mine. If everything goes as planned i will liberate myself from this prison this year.

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

I used to not care what I was doing to my family. I made my two attempts knowing full well how much it would hurt them if I succeeded, it really didn't matter to me. Plus my pets weren't a problem either. Back then I had dogs. They liked my other family members and there wouldn't have been any issues with re-homing them, so I knew they would be okay.

But since I've gotten older, I often think back how devastating it was to them the first time I attempted. (I covered up my second attempt and to this day they remain unaware.) My family spent so much time at my side when I was in the hospital, telling me how much they loved and supported me. They came to see me every day during visiting hours when I was in the psych ward. At some point over the years, a switch went off in my mind and now the idea of hurting them like that really tears me up.

And my pets... my dogs have since passed, and currently I only have cats. I'm basically the only person the cats like, and a number of my other family members are highly allergic. I'm well aware that their re-homing afterwards would be really challenging, and I worry that there's a decent chance they'll just be dumped at a shelter instead and put down. The thought of their lives being cut short after they've given me so much love is awful.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to not caring.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

No, my family is toxic and if I die nobody would care as we are struggling and if I die maybe they have don't have to share the food that are already less, so in this instance, it would be actually good for them.

 

[iLikeFrogs]

My family adopted a dog and they almost gave her up when I was hospitalized. I'm stuck with a puppy for the rest of my life now. She's trying to climb on my lap as we speak

 

[Hollowman]

Stick around long enough and you might find out what it's like.

 

[starboy2k]

Stick around long enough

BWAHAHAHAHAHA……..that was a good one

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

I'm so glad my family doesnt actually financially need me and I have no kids or SO to support either. When it comes to friends yeah it will suck but I'm sure they'll move on eventually except for my two best friends

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

I am a people-pleaser (Mark 8:36), but as much as I desire to please, the fact is I cannot please everyone (John 10:27-28), and can only control the things I can control (Matthew 13:12), which as my mother would say: I can't bullshit a bullshitter, for "bullshit recognizes bullshit" (John 15:18-19). And if that makes me a liability, why should I live? (John 3:16-21)

I die, I die; though my father, mother, and even the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)