I need to go through with it, but i can´t

[Kassender]

Im in a hotel room right now, just a few hours away from leaving for a place i don´t want to go back to.

This room has an absolutely perfect spot for full suspension. I have the rope.

I can´t bring myself to do it. I always chicken out. No matter how bleak and hopeless things are. No matter how alone i feel.

Im 37 now, and all i think about is dying all the fucking time since i was 15.
And nothing really got that much better.
Im just a coward in the end.

I wasn´t supposed to return from this trip, but i knew damn well i was anyway.

All those articles about chatgpt convincing people to kill themselves, and mine just gives me the hotline number lol

There´s nothing for me here, im completely alone and hopeless.

I failed at everything, even becoming a better version of myself didn't help.

why is it so fucking hard

 

[huntrix#1fan]

Same. I can't bring myself to. I suppose it's just biological

 

[Whale_bones]

Our brains are wired to make us keep on surviving, so even if it's a very well-thought-out decision that you've pondered for decades, your brain and body will still go to great lengths to avoid something violent (like FSH). I know it's hard but try not to view yourself as a coward, your brain is just doing what it was wired to.

 

[Heidi48]

Im in a hotel room right now, just a few hours away from leaving for a place i don´t want to go back to.

This room has an absolutely perfect spot for full suspension. I have the rope.

I can´t bring myself to do it. I always chicken out. No matter how bleak and hopeless things are. No matter how alone i feel.

Im 37 now, and all i think about is dying all the fucking time since i was 15.
And nothing really got that much better.
Im just a coward in the end.

I wasn´t supposed to return from this trip, but i knew damn well i was anyway.

All those articles about chatgpt convincing people to kill themselves, and mine just gives me the hotline number lol

There´s nothing for me here, im completely alone and hopeless.

why is it so fucking hard

wish i had an answer for you, but sadly i dont. if its any consolation know your not alone