I need hel and advice

[ksera]

I don't know when it time to say enough is enough. I have been through a lot and I don't mean little shit. My life has been pathetic. I sometimes think all that talk of being a survivor is rubbish. It seems to help other people feel better about what is happening but it hasn't helped me. I know that its unlikely that anyone will want to be with someone that's been abused so badly. Its not because I have to put it behind me, I try that all the time. I never make a fuss, I don't tell people. I try and spend everyday helping others. but i know that it can happen again. I can see how people look at me if they know. I would choose for no one to know, but I wasn't given that choice. The police made sure of that. but not only did they not help they made it worse. the consequences of their actions has made it so much worse, im so tired. I don't know what to do

 

[Flume]

Enough is when it's enough, you'll know it when the time comes. If it ever does that is... I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts for 10 years, gradually I learned that this is the end for me. But that doesn't mean it's the end for you... live your life. Let what happens happen, live like normal, live like you want to, there's really nothing to worry about.

And please try to take your mind of suicide, it's fucking draining to think about. Doesn't help much with anything at all.