I miss my old self

[TheHatedOne]

I was sitting and thinking... man, back then I was capable of doing so many things. I succeded in losing 7kgs in a summer, I was helpful, I was bright and always learning new things. I felt I was powerful back then even if I still suffered a lot.
Now I'm just an abandoned building with shitty brain that cna barely do basic things, I can't help anyone can't even find words to comfort them, it's almost impossible to learn new things; i forget them after minutes. i have no more motivation or power to do big things. I'm terminated basically. I'll never be who I used to be again, not even a slight resemblance of it.

 

[TooConscious]

You'd be surprised what people come back from.

 

[LADY007]

I was sitting and thinking... man, back then I was capable of doing so many things. I succeded in losing 7kgs in a summer, I was helpful, I was bright and always learning new things. I felt I was powerful back then even if I still suffered a lot.
Now I'm just an abandoned building with shitty brain that cna barely do basic things, I can't help anyone can't even find words to comfort them, it's almost impossible to learn new things; i forget them after minutes. i have no more motivation or power to do big things. I'm terminated basically. I'll never be who I used to be again, not even a slight resemblance of it.

You are far from alone in thinking this. Millions of older people feel the same way but they don't want to talk about it for fear of being a complaining,
elderly person (me included..I am 70. Just putting make-up on takes three times as long now due to wrinkles and needing concealer under my eyes because the skin has gotten thinner and the blue veins show. Eyesight not 20/20 anymore so I am more tense driving on a crowded highway. Big adjustment....not the same person for many reasons and I miss me, too !! I AM very grateful for many things and wish I could help members here who are in painful situations. The changes gave me a preview of feelings to come as I get older. Bought my nitrogen tank because when enough losses have happened to make me say ENOUGH!!! ...then I ctb.

 

[GoldLeafIndigo]

You'd be surprised what people come back from.

I want to believe that.

 

[Sherri]

Me too, I look at pictures of myself in the past and say, where is that person? Depression changed my looks, aged me. Took away any trace of life specially in my eyes, they are very expressive.

 

[CogitoMori]

I used to be so much stronger than I am now. I used to have hope.