Venting I miss my ex

[cylus46]

Ok title a little misleading. I dont miss my ex- she cheated on me with 8 guys. I miss the affection and love she gave me. Even if it wasnt real its impact on me was. The voices in my head stopped, I was stable- overworked and exhausted but stable. I was a good boyfriend i did everything right and just serving her the way I did made me feel so good. I miss her "good jobs" her cuddles and kisses. I miss feeling wanted and loved for who I am. And now im alone and no one would ever dare to accept me for who I am. Again I know she didn't not deep down but I didnt care- the illusion was a drug in of itself and its high cured me.
Thats gone
One day ill be gone with it

 

[lohre2000s]

I totally get what you mean.
My ex was... very broken. She is the only ex I ever had and she was the "hello kitty girl" - always craving attention and what not. She PROBABLY cheated on me, but regardless the countless jokes about my appearance and constant need to "order me around" were already enough to make scared shitless of getting a new relationship. Still, I miss those days.
Nowadays she dates a famous youtuber and shows up on my homepage frequently.Shit is hell.

 

[cylus46]

I totally get what you mean.
My ex was... very broken. She is the only ex I ever had and she was the "hello kitty girl" - always craving attention and what not. She PROBABLY cheated on me, but regardless the countless jokes about my appearance and constant need to "order me around" were already enough to make scared shitless of getting a new relationship. Still, I miss those days.
Nowadays she dates a famous youtuber and shows up on my homepage frequently.Shit is hell.

Block that YTber man it aint worth. Fuck her. Woman are evil man

 

[WalmartSoap]

I feel similarly, not that my ex is someone I particularly miss being with, but rather he made me feel.. well, special for lack of a better term.

I don't even think you could call him my ex, he broke things off after two weeks bc he figured out he was gay. Isn't that humiliating? It's the type of punchline you find in comedy sketches, suicidal girl thinks someone loves her and turns out he's gay. All my friends just kind of brushed it off, took his side in "his journey to find himself." Him and I are still friends, and I wouldn't say it hurts to be around him. It just hurts knowing I'll never feel truly and actually loved going forward.

So I'm sorry you feel that way, man. Although our experiences were different, as short-lived as my stupid ass relationship was, it made me feel the best I had in a damn long time. So I kind of relate :/

 

[cylus46]

I feel similarly, not that my ex is someone I particularly miss being with, but rather he made me feel.. well, special for lack of a better term.

I don't even think you could call him my ex, he broke things off after two weeks bc he figured out he was gay. Isn't that humiliating? It's the type of punchline you find in comedy sketches, suicidal girl thinks someone loves her and turns out he's gay. All my friends just kind of brushed it off, took his side in "his journey to find himself." Him and I are still friends, and I wouldn't say it hurts to be around him. It just hurts knowing I'll never feel truly and actually loved going forward.

So I'm sorry you feel that way, man. Although our experiences were different, as short-lived as my stupid ass relationship was, it made me feel the best I had in a damn long time. So I kind of relate :/

Lmao it does sound like a comedy. But I am sorry that happened honestly the worst break ups are the one where you just arent enough for the person.
My first relationship was senior year of highschool, we dated 9 months and I spent 3k on her, im a fireman so I convinced my chief too let me use the fire department too ask her out, did confetti,flowers,teddybears and a poster that took me 2 weeks to craft.
A month and a half later she text me saying im too needy and she tried to sugar coat the why but really? I just wasnt enough for her.
I didnt date for 3 years untill then my most recent ex. Again put my everything, money,heart,soul and she cheated on me. With 8 guys on snap sending them nudes, videos, calling them daddy and for them too fill her up and all this...
I wanted to hurt her so bad I was trembling when I confronted her but I just walked away and eventually ended it.
I know why she cheated. The same reason my first ex left me. Im not enough. Im not good enough, handsome enough, rich enough, muscular enough.
They all left and they'll all leave so whats the point.

Sorry if thats heavily vented out im really high and mentally unstable