Help I know how to ctb but my family is getting in the way

[somi.c]

So I've decided to inhale helium gas and die by asphyxiation. But the problem is after last time when I bought SN and my sister found it and showed my parents they keep my purchases under control also I'm 18 and a high school senior and my parents want to control me so much that they don't let me get a job, go outside without their permission or have a bank account. SN was my only hope out of this hell but my family threw it down the drain and now I really need to die but I have no idea how to do it while my parents are watching my every move. Also they don't love me they just don't want to tarnish their reputation

 

[ipmanwc0]

the only thing i can think of that wouldn't be waiting until you can move out is a train or jumping (hanging is an option if you can steal a rope)

 

[BlockedintheUK]

Maybe get the fuck out of that house and see how you feel then? Sounds like you are trapped in toxic shit.

 

[SufferingDev]

1. Do NOT stay in abusive household - If I knew that faster, probably wouldn't be here.
2. Maybe try to look for a partner that can help you?

 

[chaewon]

1. Do NOT stay in abusive household - If I knew that faster, probably wouldn't be here.
2. Maybe try to look for a partner that can help you?

Wish it was this easy to leave an abusive household

 

[SufferingDev]

It is not - I am a lucky fella I moved out while being 18 - because of my job as Software Engineer but I know many are not as lucky - I can't and don't want to judge - in MY opinion I would leave no matter what but again, I didn't have to ever sleep on streets or anything so my opinion is subjective.