i keep joking w my friends about "killing myself next week"

[1111]

they dont know its fr. sn arriving monday!
ill prob attemp w/o ae tbh i cant bother to try to get them. ill just hope ill be able to keep chugging that shi if i throw up

 

[EmptyBottle]

Tbh, I probably wouldn't hint about CTB, just in case friends catch on.
As for the 2nd cup... even if one's stomach clears (assuming no intervention), the SN is still able to achieve methemoglobemia and stop the heart. From goodbye posts I have read, after the stomach is cleared, one may not be able to drink that cup, and I doubt someone else will drink it unless they somehow also have an account here, know what it is, and wish to CTB too.

 

[AkaRed]

I know the feeling of trying to send a message to see if ANYONE will take you seriously. Most people don't pick up or don't believe it's real enough.
Is there any part of you that is doing this as a cry for help? Or a cry for somebody to notice?

 

[Chems_Solution]

they dont know its fr. sn arriving monday!
ill prob attemp w/o ae tbh i cant bother to try to get them. ill just hope ill be able to keep chugging that shi if i throw up

Wish you the best, besties (๑•ᴗ•๑)♡. If you really can't get AE, just make a backup cup (second or third cup with the same dose or slightly less), just be prepared it's gonna be nauseatingly nauseous

 

[pogostick]

I always try to throw hints at my friends but they don't seem to get it lmao. Everytime I make a joke about suicide, I send it and think about them looking back on it once I'm dead

 

[Macedonian1987]

I wouldn't recommend taking your SN without antiemetics. It's easy to get them, just lie to your doctor that you have nauseating migraines and he should prescribe meto to you. That's how I got mine.

 

[58Alice85]

I've heard of at least 2 cases where people announced they were going to kill themselves, everyone thought they were joking, and then they actually did it

 

[1111]

I wouldn't recommend taking your SN without antiemetics. It's easy to get them, just lie to your doctor that you have nauseating migraines and he should prescribe meto to you. That's how I got mine.

cant do that. ive been in the psych ward before and i dont want to step foot in the hospital cause theyll just know...the risk is too much

 

[Macedonian1987]

cant do that. ive been in the psych ward before and i dont want to step foot in the hospital cause theyll just know...the risk is too much

You can go to a diferent doctor, let's say a private practicioner. I got my meto that way. Private practicioners are expensive but at least they can get the job done.

 

[1111]

You can go to a diferent doctor, let's say a private practicioner. I got my meto that way. Private practicioners are expensive but at least they can get the job done.

im a uni student and i quite literally get 20euros every week. this is just not possible at all