Venting i just ordered sn

[fortunamajor]

thankfully i live in a country where i could just order it directly to me. ive been suicidal pretty much nonstop since i started middle school. it never got better and now ive backed my life into a corner, made promises i can't keep, enrolled in a major i can't complete. im somehow still holding on by a thread but at least this way i will know i always have a way out, which is i guess what ultimately matters anyway. i didn't think id survive till 20 but here we are, i think that's enough of an achievement on its own.

 

[rs929]

Now that you are going to have the SN you could really try hard and see if there is a chance to live better, knowing you have a way out. If you are only 20, it seems unlikely that you have tried everything that can lead to a better quality of life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in what you decide.