I haven’t felt more addicted to a substance I have only touched once

[sorrymyfault]

I just want a cigarette to smoke away my problems, I don't care if it causes cancer, I want that nicotine to kill me from the inside like everyone in my life has. I want to feel the cigarette burning in my skin, I want it to be there forever. I want it to remind me how useless everything is, just give me a cigarette. I'm dirt broke I can't even afford a cigarette.