Venting I have never felt so close

[Big_Eal]

Today I received my last meds to complete my SN protocol ( I could not find benzos) . I am an overthinker so I have been imagined a lot of scenarios where I did CTB . Now is super close to become reality , sometimes I feel nervous but most of the time I feel peace . I am waiting for a window of time to do it and thats it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd also feel at peace if I had the option to reliably cease existing, I just wish to never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best.