I have been sitting at the bus stop for quite awhile now

[StillWaiting]

I have seen people who caught their bus, I have also seen people who have left the bus stop.
I feel so lost while sitting at bus stop. I wish I have the courage to make up my mind.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I think it's ok to be at the bus stop for as long as it takes. You've got to get the right bus at the right time that takes YOU home.

I was watching The Bridge documentary yesterday (thank you @TheCrow and @Mrs.O'Leary'sCow for the recommendation) and it was really interesting. Just to see really that some people struggle all their lives with mental ill-health and for some it comes out of the blue.

Some seem to make several attempts and some visited the bridge a few times, others just turn up and go straight away. It just shows that there's no time scale, no right or wrong way. I think sometimes we have fractionally 'better' days or moments and they carry us through that bit longer. Then we turn around and think why on earth am I still here.

 

[StillWaiting]

I think it's ok to be at the bus stop for as long as it takes. You've got to get the right bus at the right time that takes YOU home.

I was watching The Bridge documentary yesterday (thank you @TheCrow and @Mrs.O'Leary'sCow for the recommendation) and it was really interesting. Just to see really that some people struggle all their lives with mental ill-health and for some it comes out of the blue.

Some seem to make several attempts and some visited the bridge a few times, others just turn up and go straight away. It just shows that there's no time scale, no right or wrong way. I think sometimes we have fractionally 'better' days or moments and they carry us through that bit longer. Then we turn around and think why on earth am I still here.

The documentary sounds interesting. I should watch it someday. Thanks for the recommendation. Hopefully I can find my right bus. I am getting really tired.

 

[JustAboutDone]

The documentary sounds interesting. I should watch it someday. Thanks for the recommendation. Hopefully I can find my right bus. I am getting really tired.

I know - and when the fatigue sets in it feels impossible to do anything, even get out of bed. It's grim isn't it. Like existing in a grey world.

 

[StillWaiting]

I know - and when the fatigue sets in it feels impossible to do anything, even get out of bed. It's grim isn't it. Like existing in a grey world.

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up like this. Most people around my age are enjoying their lives. It makes me feel hate myself even more

 

[Sanguinius]

I'm at the bus stop 2 dammn years now... feel you.
*hugs and love...

 

[JustAboutDone]

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up like this. Most people around my age are enjoying their lives. It makes me feel hate myself even more

That doesn't help, does it? The feeling that there is some 'expectation' of an age group that they should be having the 'time of their lives' and a social whirl etc. It's all nonsense pressure you don't need. Take it at your own pace, if you can find a few friends you like to enjoy quieter pursuits with that's perfect too - as is whatever suits you. There are horrible expectations placed on every age group and it's so tedious! I think here on SS we should start a rebellion

 

[21Neberg]

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up like this. Most people around my age are enjoying their lives. It makes me feel hate myself even more

Dont hate yourself just because you were cursed with this mental state.

 

[TheCrow]

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up like this. Most people around my age are enjoying their lives. It makes me feel hate myself even more

Aww, don't hate yourself. Lots of people your age also feel just like you feel. xo

 

[JustAboutDone]

@StillWaiting have I asked you if that's your cat?

Just read your profile page, it's not your cat but it's very cute :-)

 

[Sickman75]

Ya same here I can

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up like this. Most people around my age are enjoying their lives. It makes me feel hate myself even more

Same here I can totally relate.

 

[Grey-zone]

I have seen people who caught their bus, I have also seen people who have left the bus stop.
I feel so lost while sitting at bus stop. I wish I have the courage to make up my mind.

Living with my parents my entire life (now in late 20s), I have spent many moments like that, although I usually saunter around the neighborhood aimlessly when I feel suffocated from being in the house, which is often. Whenever I look for a cafe to sit in the process can be difficult and I can't decide, so I understand your 'bus dilemma'. It's a feeling of having nowhere to go but not wanting to be where you are. If I had a car then things might be easier. Maybe.