I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Just goal is die

[Defenestration]

Ugh, same. I "quietly quit" life years ago.

And what people say about this?
Good luck

 

[Leyna]

no goals here either. my only "goal" is to make and save enough money so my parents don't have to worry about finances and then just die.

 

[Pluto]

 

[blacksand]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

 

[Defenestration]

2020-early 2023 were realistically the last time I had to change anything. I can't describe what has happened since then but it's literally like my brain is physically broken. On a very existential level I know that this melancholy is my life my identity my truth and it's set in stone.

Same thing for me....
Broken... I live automatically

 

[lawlietsph]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

 

[Defenestration]

same here.
everything is so pointless, like why bother with anything at this point...
it is really hard to live like this honestly.

That's why i hate SI

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I have absolutely no goals in life, I do nothing. Not even the tiniest one.
My just goal is die since 2023...

When people tell me to start exercising, to eat better, to find a social purpose, etc., I tell myself that it's all pointless anyway because what I truly want is to die.

So I spend three-quarters of my days doing nothing. I'd like to die, but my survival instinct is strong, and I'd have to create a monumental void in my life, in my phone, at home, and rewrite my suicide notes. Too lazy for that, and I keep putting it off.

In fact, I'm here without really being here... I still hope I have the strength to die.

If it makes you feel better about yourself, I feel the same way. Don't think you're a bum for laying around and doing nothing, I'm sure a lot of us have fallen into that cycle. Sort of being checked out of life even though we're not dead yet. I am also too lazy to rewrite my suicide notes(if you've seen my last post it's about getting rid of them all which was a huge mistake for me).

 

[TAW122]

I have such feelings for most of my life, even during my adult life, where I just go through the motions of day to day life while yearning and hoping that the day and the right circumstances come to where I just simply CTB. In my mind, I know that after I CTB, nothing will matter anymore, but making sure everything is right and that I'm absolutely ready with close to zero chance of error is paramount.

Truthfully, it's more that I want to do nothing. I think that's why death appeals partly. But then, if I do nothing, I'll eventually suffer more. So- it's more that my goals are enforced now- rather than being genuine. I need money to live- which means working. I need to be fit enough to work- which means maintining basic hygienne, diet, living environment, exercise. It's such a struggle though. I just want to curl up, sleep and be free of it all.

I kind of feel the same way too, I think it's better to hold a facade of normalcy as to not tip off or raise any suspicion as to one's real intentions when in the process of planning, preparing, and eventually carrying out one's plans.