Venting i hate my life

[capurin]

does anyone else here feels that they like living but hates their lifes? what do you do with that feeling? have you gotten help and got better?
i made a decision already but i still think about how I would've liked to live... i'm still young and there's so many things i wanted to do but I can't do this anymore. seeking for help hasn't helped me at all, not even medication has helped me and i think i have no way out. my life only gets worse and worse, even if I don't kms i still wouldn't do what i want because I can't. i hate myself very deeply in every single aspect. i think everyone knows their way in life and i still don't. im still lost. and I'm done.

 

[LastNite]

Yeh same here it's a mountain of problems you kind of wish to solve them all but they bring you so far down that you can only think of suicide as a solution. If you are really determined start off small and find things to tackle each problem in your life whether it's parents, school, job, or anything for that matter. I honestly quit school because it was a reason my life sucked a lot. My life still sucks but that helped me for a couple of weeks it made me feel more alive. Not getting bullied for no reason. Not getting yelled at for bad grades. Not worrying my ass off about failing an exam or nearly killing myself just because I thought I'd fail an upcoming exam. Theres so many things to life that you can't just hang on to sometimes you have to let go. Im not saying dropping out is good but if it helps you then fuck the entire world and just do whatever you think will actually help you.

 

[StupidCat]

I don't think I hate myself entirely, but I hate my actions. It feels like every step in the way I try to sabotage myself to fuck my life every time.
Might be unconscious thing but I don;t know. Most of my life I felt like I am my worst enemy.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I cant make it outside of my own head.

 

[northorsomething]

does anyone else here feels that they like living but hates their lifes? what do you do with that feeling? have you gotten help and got better?

Absolutely, the biggest hurdle I've had with killing myself is that I like living, just not the life that I live. I've tried things to improve my life, like trying to get my grades up, etc. Not saying that nobody is able to make their life better, just saying that it hasn't worked for me. There are plenty of small things you can do, you just have to identify what you need to do and not take too much on at one time, that's how the majority of people fail.

 

[Griever]