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Ghuleh

Ghuleh

my head wasn't wired for this world
Jan 30, 2025
4
This year I'm spending my birthday alone, I feel so pathetic, none of my friends remembered it except for my ex, I don't blame them or take it personally as everyone hast things going on on their own life yet I can't help but feel like an idiot, I'm the type of person who stays up waiting for the clock to hit midnight to be the first to congratulate people and write them something meaningful.
I expected to at least have my mother visit but unfortunately she's sick In the hospital, her health matters more than anything. I feel like a selfish asshole for feeling sad about it.
I wanted to have decent day because I'm planning my exit for later this year and it might be my last but oh well.
I feel like I have no right to be this upset, this is such a stupid thing but I cannot change how I feel I want it to end.
The first time I wished to be dead was on my birthday, it became a tradition for me to blow the candles wishing for it to be my last. There's no candles to blow this year but I sure hope it is the last this time.
 
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PINKIESISU

PINKIESISU

Member
Apr 21, 2024
54
THAT WHY I CALL IT....MY CLOSER TO DEATH DAY
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
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This year I'm spending my birthday alone, I feel so pathetic, none of my friends remembered it except for my ex, I don't blame them or take it personally as everyone hast things going on on their own life yet I can't help but feel like an idiot, I'm the type of person who stays up waiting for the clock to hit midnight to be the first to congratulate people and write them something meaningful.
I expected to at least have my mother visit but unfortunately she's sick In the hospital, her health matters more than anything. I feel like a selfish asshole for feeling sad about it.
I wanted to have decent day because I'm planning my exit for later this year and it might be my last but oh well.
I feel like I have no right to be this upset, this is such a stupid thing but I cannot change how I feel I want it to end.
The first time I wished to be dead was on my birthday, it became a tradition for me to blow the candles wishing for it to be my last. There's no candles to blow this year but I sure hope it is the last this time.
Emotion is human, it's also normal to feel upset over illnesses of parents.
Sorry those feelings are there
 
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PINKIESISU

PINKIESISU

Member
Apr 21, 2024
54
This year I'm spending my birthday alone, I feel so pathetic, none of my friends remembered it except for my ex, I don't blame them or take it personally as everyone hast things going on on their own life yet I can't help but feel like an idiot, I'm the type of person who stays up waiting for the clock to hit midnight to be the first to congratulate people and write them something meaningful.
I expected to at least have my mother visit but unfortunately she's sick In the hospital, her health matters more than anything. I feel like a selfish asshole for feeling sad about it.
I wanted to have decent day because I'm planning my exit for later this year and it might be my last but oh well.
I feel like I have no right to be this upset, this is such a stupid thing but I cannot change how I feel I want it to end.
The first time I wished to be dead was on my birthday, it became a tradition for me to blow the candles wishing for it to be my last. There's no candles to blow this year but I sure hope it is the last this time.
I call it my closer to death day.....birth in this reality is nothing to celebrate
 
limpimitation

limpimitation

when the flowers come, i will go
May 15, 2025
37
Mine is coming up soon, I'm dreading it
 
Morte

Morte

Specialist
Nov 23, 2023
376
I hate mine too. There's no reason for me to celebrate the day I came into this horrible world. Also, every time I get older my life gets worse.
 

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