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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
562
all it does is cause me so much guilt and pain

I just want to die. I've had enough of being me. I can't believe in a God who loves me. I'm still scared of a God who hates me or is punishing me.

but I can't. I just can't do it to my family and I am so SICK of pretending to be okay for their sake, all the time. I feel so alone. I love them so much but I can't stand myself
I don't want to be me. I HATE me. but I can't escape because I can't hurt them.

I'm 27. I'm nowhere near a natural death. I don't know how I can wait to die naturally
 
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