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miguel6565

miguel6565

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Apr 5, 2020
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just have my worst anxiety attack where i started to cry unstoppably and moving whitout control and hitting my head,while that my mum opened the door and saw me like that in the floor and started crying,i am so fucked up
 
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rebelsue

Hope Addict
Dec 12, 2019
172
At least your mom cared enough to cry for you. Mine wishes I'd kill myself so she'll finally be free.
 
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laserfocus111

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Feb 11, 2020
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We all fuck up. It's how we get back on our feet that matters.

Some of us just can't. That's why we are here in this forum..
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
883
At times there seems no hope or possibility to get back on our feet or take control of our life which keeps beating us down.... Life is too fucked up with ctb the only option left. .. Well that's my situation anyway ... If u in the same boat then welcome to my world...
 
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akrasia

akrasia

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Feb 11, 2020
153
i'm so sorry you have to went through that. it's nice to hear that your mom cares about you. i've had panic attacks like that as well and it's always unpleasant. luckily i never had anyone walked on me during one.
i hope you're feeling okay now ❤
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
There's nothing to feel embarassed or sorry about our own mental issues or the people who care for us.

I hope you find peace.
 
Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
anxiety and panic attacks are the worst, I had a major one last week, worst in a long time, normally I can calm it with a drink, but lsat week that bitch backfired on me!
Either way, you have nothing to be ashamed of, your body and mind are dealing with shit in the one way they know how, no matter how awful and hard it is for us, esp mentally,
You said your mum cried, was she supportive after?
 
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miguel6565

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Apr 5, 2020
421
anxiety and panic attacks are the worst, I had a major one last week, worst in a long time, normally I can calm it with a drink, but lsat week that bitch backfired on me!
Either way, you have nothing to be ashamed of, your body and mind are dealing with shit in the one way they know how, no matter how awful and hard it is for us, esp mentally,
You said your mum cried, was she supportive after?
no they just think i am overreacting
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
1,831
no they just think i am overreacting
Maybe you are, but you don't chose to overreact. It's not a choice, it's your brain stem and limbic system. Not your frontal cortex deciding to have a panic attack for fun.

I'm sorry, people who haven't experienced loss of control don't get it.
 
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darkhorse256

darkhorse256

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Mar 10, 2020
112
no they just think i am overreacting

They sound like my parents. I was having flashbacks from PTSD and they asked me "what's wrong with you?" I'm so sorry you have to go through that. You didn't fuck up and it's their fault for not understanding.
 
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