I feel lonely - no matter what I do

[noname223]

I even feel lonely when I am around of my friends. Loneliness becomes worse if you are around happy people.

In my self-help group it almost slipped how lonely I feel. I think it is existential loneliness. No one can ever grasp how I feel no matter how many words I use to describe it. Someone had to change shoes to feel how I feel. But would this even matter?

I have 7-9 friends. I still feel lonely. I don't know whether romantic love would change it. I long for love.

I felt less suicidal when I had this close bond to the borderline woman I dated. It felt amazing. But I was co-dependent.

Currently, I am texting with someone new from a dating app. We text so much and it takes a lot of time. I am not sure whether I am fully happy with that. I keep the conversation going all the time. She does not contribute that much to our conversation. This feel draining. I feel lonely despite the fact we exchange more than 150 messages per day.

I noticed my social anxiety often makes connections difficult. It triggers so easily paranoia. The sensory overload is hard to deal with. It takes a lot of energy.

I always need input. Because my mind is so negative on me. The self-loathing is pretty strong.

 

[bankai]

Yeah, dude, I get it. I mostly stopped trying. I can't really feel whole mysellf.When I go to work. I meet up with coworkers and have a good time, go to the cafeteria, talk, etcetera.

End of the day though, it doesn't really help. I'm the same me.

 

[S like Siren]

Me too...lonely became a part of who i am now.

 

[Pluto]

 

[sambrosia]

Same. It feels like intrusive thoughts. Even when I go to social events, I end up feeling alienated and lonely and thinking about how everyone else has more friends and more of a life than me. Sigh. My brain doesn't let me enjoy anything.

 

[ImnotCTB]

Being alone and being lonely are 2 different things. I'm not in the mood to go full on philosophical right now but you don't need another person or anything to stop being lonely, look at my signature

Edit: now I'm feeling lonely too

 

[thereisnoneed]

I even feel lonely when I am around of my friends. Loneliness becomes worse if you are around happy people.

In my self-help group it almost slipped how lonely I feel. I think it is existential loneliness. No one can ever grasp how I feel no matter how many words I use to describe it. Someone had to change shoes to feel how I feel. But would this even matter?

I have 7-9 friends. I still feel lonely. I don't know whether romantic love would change it. I long for love.

I felt less suicidal when I had this close bond to the borderline woman I dated. It felt amazing. But I was co-dependent.

Currently, I am texting with someone new from a dating app. We text so much and it takes a lot of time. I am not sure whether I am fully happy with that. I keep the conversation going all the time. She does not contribute that much to our conversation. This feel draining. I feel lonely despite the fact we exchange more than 150 messages per day.

I noticed my social anxiety often makes connections difficult. It triggers so easily paranoia. The sensory overload is hard to deal with. It takes a lot of energy.

I always need input. Because my mind is so negative on me. The self-loathing is pretty strong.

you can have friends but still feel lonly, if you fail to find friends that understand you

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

I suppose I do with some emotional vulnerability...

I have four acquaintances that could reasonably be defined as friends and three relatives. I have very little motivation to interact with any of them due to the stress socialization causes me.

I find that I am most content with as little human contact as possible. Most days all the socialization I do is leaving random posts on this website, haha.