Discussion I Feel Like I Can Let Go Now

[weallhaveourghosts]

I can finally do it. I had been waiting because I wanted to have a conversation about how I'd been feeling with my roommate about friend stuff and it finally happened and now I feel like I won't have any unfinished business or anything so like yeah. I guess like now is deciding what day. I know I don't want to be here next year so I think maybe the 23rd.

 

[clarity]

I feel the same. I don't have any unfinished business because I spent this year tying up loose ends. Everything that I wanted to get done before I ctb is now done.

I'm still deciding on a date, and spent today looking at the calendar. It's hard to believe that this year is almost over.

I'm still stuck here because of SI. I'm not desiring life but I don't desire death either.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I feel the same. I don't have any unfinished business because I spent this year tying up loose ends. Everything that I wanted to get done before I ctb is now done.

I'm still deciding on a date, and spent today looking at the calendar. It's hard to believe that this year is almost over.

I'm still stuck here because of SI. I'm not desiring life but I don't desire death either.

The date part is really hard. I know I wanna leave on a good note with my roommate which I know if I actually succeed will happen now. I'm feeling better when it comes to my mom too. I do know I want to die, just not sure when. I've also been thinking about like if I do it at home if my roommate will be able to continue living here cause I know they wanted to live here for a longish term but idk if that would fuck them up too much idk.

 

[clarity]

The date part is really hard. I know I wanna leave on a good note with my roommate which I know if I actually succeed will happen now. I'm feeling better when it comes to my mom too. I do know I want to die, just not sure when. I've also been thinking about like if I do it at home if my roommate will be able to continue living here cause I know they wanted to live here for a longish term but idk if that would fuck them up too much idk.

I had a date back in March of this year. I didn't end up going ahead, but I wanted this to be my last year. I wanted to ctb before my birthday (November) but that has now passed too. Now I'm thinking some time before this year ends. Maybe new years eve.

I'm feeling better when it comes to my mum too. She's seeing a psychologist so I know someone will help her through it.

I was approved for disability pension this year and I promised myself I will only be on it for a year. Between killing myself and putting myself through work until I eventually die anyway, I would definitely choose to ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I had a date back in March of this year. I didn't end up going ahead, but I wanted this to be my last year. I wanted to ctb before my birthday (November) but that has now passed too. Now I'm thinking some time before this year ends. Maybe new years eve.

I'm feeling better when it comes to my mum too. She's seeing a psychologist so I know someone will help her through it.

I was approved for disability pension this year and I promised myself I will only be on it for a year. Between killing myself and putting myself through work until I eventually die anyway, I would definitely choose to ctb.

Yeah I feel that I had planned to do it before this month as well.

I'm also like trying to find a new job and like have to move out essentially pretty soon also and it's like do I wanna spend more months looking for work and a place to live and worry about other things or just go ahead and do it. I'd much rather just go ahead and do it. Still been applying to jobs in case things don't work out but it's been difficult to keep the momentum going.

I wish you the best.

Thank you.