I feel like a pussy because i want to CTB because i hate working.

[gantaigarashi]

I feel like a such a pussy. Like there are people working hard in corporates or blue collar jobs, enduring it and providing for their families. But I just can't do this.

I failed my attempting SN recently. I hate SI. It would've been good if I had CTB'd that day. Now we've moved places near to my brother's university and his classes have started. Now if I CTB my brother will have to drop out of college. My family will probably have to move places again. I will cause them so many inconveniences if I CTB now.

I'm fucking stuck man. My workload is increasing, I can't bear to see the mails. Idk anymore, I feel so helpless, I wish if someone could've saved me from this hell. I wish if I was mentally stronger to push through this hell and wait till my brother graduated. I am a defeated human.

I am a pussy because I can't do a job that's most of the time work from home and it pays good. I should be grateful that I'm in a decent paying job with work from home, but here I am thinking about CTBing because of it. Fuck

 

[okuhvtuji]

I feel like a such a pussy. Like there are people working hard in corporates or blue collar jobs, enduring it and providing for their families. But I just can't do this.

I failed my attempting SN recently. I hate SI. It would've been good if I had CTB'd that day. Now we've moved places near to my brother's university and his classes have started. Now if I CTB my brother will have to drop out of college. My family will probably have to move places again. I will cause them so many inconveniences if I CTB now.

I'm fucking stuck man. My workload is increasing, I can't bear to see the mails. Idk anymore, I feel so helpless, I wish if someone could've saved me from this hell. I wish if I was mentally stronger to push through this hell and wait till my brother graduated. I am a defeated human.

I am a pussy because I can't do a job that's most of the time work from home and it pays good. I should be grateful that I'm in a decent paying job with work from home, but here I am thinking about CTBing because of it. Fuck

What if you put an insurance on your life?

I feel like a such a pussy. Like there are people working hard in corporates or blue collar jobs, enduring it and providing for their families. But I just can't do this.

I failed my attempting SN recently. I hate SI. It would've been good if I had CTB'd that day. Now we've moved places near to my brother's university and his classes have started. Now if I CTB my brother will have to drop out of college. My family will probably have to move places again. I will cause them so many inconveniences if I CTB now.

I'm fucking stuck man. My workload is increasing, I can't bear to see the mails. Idk anymore, I feel so helpless, I wish if someone could've saved me from this hell. I wish if I was mentally stronger to push through this hell and wait till my brother graduated. I am a defeated human.

I am a pussy because I can't do a job that's most of the time work from home and it pays good. I should be grateful that I'm in a decent paying job with work from home, but here I am thinking about CTBing because of it. Fuck

How did you fail SN?

Also I'm very sorry for your situation, it's normal to feel overwhelmed, you are not a pussy. Open up to a therapist about all this, talk to your parents if you can.

 

[astr4]

you're not a pussy. humans weren't meant to be wage slaves all our lives. you're allowed to be fed up and tired of it all, i get it. it sounds like you have a lot of responsibility and it can be overwhelming to not be able to take a break.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

You aren't a pussy... that's just the oversocialisation talking. Wanting to ctb because you hate work is entirely logical and rational. Working is extremely difficult and tiring. Working is just modern day slavery. I want to ctb to avoid work and I think that's entirely rational. Not everybody is meant for working and, even if we are, it still doesn't justify working. Working sounds miserable as hell

 

[ItsyBitsyWeetard]

What if you put an insurance on your life?

How did you fail SN?

Also I'm very sorry for your situation, it's normal to feel overwhelmed, you are not a pussy. Open up to a therapist about all this, talk to your parents if you can.

his SI kicked in

 

[gantaigarashi]

I'm crying right now. I don't want to work anymore. I have so many tax returns to review, I don't want to look at them anymore.

I think my 2nd attempt might be around the corner. I just want to escape from all of this so bad

 

[ItsyBitsyWeetard]

I'm crying right now. I don't want to work anymore. I have so many tax returns to review, I don't want to look at them anymore.

I think my 2nd attempt might be around the corner. I just want to escape from all of this so bad

im with u brudda i have to start going to college soon again and i have mental breakdowns everytime i go there and quitting isnt an option ive been considering ctb too as of late i wish u the best of luck with whatever happens in the future

 

[UKscotty]

No such thing as a valid reason to CTB.

It's your life and if you want out, you want out. There is no need to explain or justify to anyone.

Good luck whatever you decide.