Venting i feel like a bad friend and hate myself every time my besties leave vc earlier than normal

[coolgal82]

i hate it i hate myself so much it always hurts it feels like i failed to like be interesting or make good conversation or whatever and that im a failure of a friend and just fucking awful and its obviously my fault they left early

like whenever its just me and them i feel enormous pressure to try and make conversation even when im super bad at it so they dont leave and i hate it im like torn between being happy cus im with the besties and also being constantly on edge worrying about them leaving and idfk i just wish i was a good friend and better at everything maybe then they wouldnt leave i hate not being with them i wanna be with them literally 24/7

 

[WhiteRabbit]

i hate myself so much it always hurts it feels like i failed to like be interesting or make good conversation or whatever and that im a failure of a friend and just fucking awful and its obviously my fault they left early

like whenever its just me and them i feel enormous pressure to try and make conversation even when im super bad at it so they dont leave and i hate it im like torn between being happy cus im with the besties and also being constantly on edge worrying about them leaving

I can kind of relate to this.