i feel i don't deserve a peaceful death

[unbelievablydead]

i'm scared of the dying process and have been wanting a peaceful exit, but the more i think about it, the more i just feel i deserve a violent death. i know it's not a "good" option, but i just want to give myself several stab wounds and bleed to death. how long do you think that'll take? i won't have to worry about being found

 

[ilovenewyork]

That's not rational. Perhaps it's a good idea to see a doctor maybe they can help you through this

 

[unbelievablydead]

That's not rational. Perhaps it's a good idea to see a doctor maybe they can help you through this

i feel beyond the point of help and just don't want to be here anymore, but i do appreciate the concern <3

 

[rs929]

i'm scared of the dying process and have been wanting a peaceful exit, but the more i think about it, the more i just feel i deserve a violent death. i know it's not a "good" option, but i just want to give myself several stab wounds and bleed to death. how long do you think that'll take? i won't have to worry about being found

Why? What have you done so terrible?

 

[unbelievablydead]

Why? What have you done so terrible?

i don't want to say... i'm riddled with shame and guilt and i feel like i gave myself ptsd, and i just don't want to live in my body with my specific brain anymore

 

[Feldsparc]

It couldn't be worse than what I did.

 

[m3nhera]

That's not rational. Perhaps it's a good idea to see a doctor maybe they can help you through this

Very ironic to hear that on this site LMAO most of us have seen one and clearly if we are here it hasn't helped, although it's a breath of fresh air to see someone here recommending a doctor before suicide

i'm scared of the dying process and have been wanting a peaceful exit, but the more i think about it, the more i just feel i deserve a violent death. i know it's not a "good" option, but i just want to give myself several stab wounds and bleed to death. how long do you think that'll take? i won't have to worry about being found

I've fantasized about this too but when you want the violent death instead of the peaceful one, you're clearly in a bad headspace. I know you might think you want it but as someone who used to want it SO bad(and honestly still do sometimes), YOU DON'T WANT THIS. Dying this way is nice to imagine in your head, pain and all but it'll be SO MUCH WORSE if you actually do it, unimaginable pain, I've heard horrific stories of people who survived being stabbed or shot and the indescribable pain and suffering. I promise you don't want this even though we don't know each other. And normally I'd never speak for someone else, but I am really serious about this. This is the type of death that is only good in fantasy.