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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
It feels like it's something urgent, and that I can't wait any longer.
Of course, I'm not gonna ctb before the time I have planned, but still - it feels like something will go wrong if I wait.
Especially after seeing that so many people I recognised on this site have ctb in the past couple of months, it feels like I'm left behind - it's a very strange feeling.
I guess it's just the fear of SN not being available at some point that's the most scary.
 
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ctbcat

ctbcat

Yes, the everlasting contrast.
Jul 14, 2023
232
i've heard SN has a relatively long shelf life, if that's any comfort? if you feel you can trust yourself to not use it before your planned date, you could buy it ahead of time. you'd have to ask someone else about more details (when it comes to SN) though, as i don't know much since i'm going via hanging - i could've got this all wrong.
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
I know that SN has a long shelf life, but I still feel like something will go wrong (SN sources disappear, getting a welfare check, anything)
I think I'm just worrying over nothing
 

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