I don't want to live too long.I'm in a lot of trouble.But,I can't find the enthusiasm to ctb.My brain is stuck in a limbo,too tired to plan things out,even when I have all the stuff I need to check out of this mess.
Confront4283
When I’m gone just carry on, don’t mourn, rejoice
- May 24, 2024
- 46
Me too. Like from 20 onwards the fun and discovery is over and now you're our little slave until you can't provide value then you can just rot and die. The only empowerment I get is by refusing to play and to ctb. I won't be your little bitch.
Yeah.It's just a mental rollercoaster of "whys" and "what-ifs".People lie to themselves and live lives orchestrated by social reality,even the elite get played by their delusions.Those who see the ground reality and realize they there is no beginning and end to this absurd madness will slip into a state of insanity,bit by bit.
progressingdeath
Member
- May 24, 2024
- 12
I don't either. I'm a pretty happy person generally, not faking it either, or at least I'm positive -- however I'm very realistic and not blind to the realities of the world and have been through a lot. I'm just working through day to day and I'm waiting for the day I break. I definitely don't want to live a long life knowing life doesn't get easier with age
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,094
It must be tiring being trapped in that situation, the thought of suffering in this existence for decades longer is horrific and fills me with dread personally. But anyway best wishes.
QueerMelancholy
Mage
- Jul 29, 2023
- 531
It does feel like the first 10 years and the last 10 years are spent being taken care of and most of everything else in between is shitty.
I don't want to live past 50. Fuck that noise. Fuck that world. Fuck that nonsense.
I don't want to live past 50. Fuck that noise. Fuck that world. Fuck that nonsense.
