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May 19, 2022
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I really wish this was one of those things where people ask you and if the answer is no , they point you in the right direction .

But no one wants to help someone end their lives peacefully (doesn't help that it's illegal in most places unless you're a doctor with a dying patient lol) .

I think of Sweden a lot . It won't take much for me to get the money together as a "deposit " and the documents they need . But finding someone will be tough . I just hope I can do it and no one stops me .

It would be hell on earth to get into a conservatorship or some other horrible scenario where someone is "taking care of me for my best interest" … and in reality they're just keeping me here , doped up on sedatives , being hostile to anyone who would want to help me with my desire to die and keeping me here for selfish reasons . The same as people who have a kid they don't really want or just to have someone who gives them attention 24/7.

I really would rather die than lose my autonomy over my already miserable life . And I've seen people be horrible caretakers to others (I've worked in caregiving for a while) … and even if you report it those people work the system , it's not even about you reporting them it's about the fact they're determined to "win"…. I never want to play that game with them .

I just want to die peacefully. I'm so tired of being alive .
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand as I just wish to peacefully cease existing as well, all I want is to never suffer in this torturous, cruel and futile existence ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 

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