Wrath
Long live my dead dreams.
- Dec 12, 2024
- 91
Posting in offtopic since this isn't really a question about suicide, rather a weird mirror thing.
When I look in the mirror it feels like whatever is in the reflection isn't me. I don't know what this is called. From what I can remember when I didn't have this weird thing going on it feels like whatever in the mirror isn't there. It's like it got replaced with something else.
My appearance hasn't changed drastically. I don't edit photos of myself or even take photos of myself so it can't be distortion based on that. I see myself in the mirror every morning. But one day it just stopped registering as me a couple months ago I think? I never really thought this would be weird. It feels freaky, like someone is staring at me mirroring my movements.
The only things that I've done is 'practiced' dying to start to chip away at SI. I've also been disconnecting myself from everything. I have no family that cares. I have no friends. I have no relationships past or present. I have no hobbies. I have no favorite videogames. I have no favorite shows. I don't really even know if I have a favorite color anymore. I don't work. I failed highschool. I don't really care for music or tv. I've purposefully burned myself out of everything so I'll have nothing holding me back.
I've done well with getting myself mentally ready. But the one thing that I haven't done is to try to disconnect myself from my appearance. I guess it just happened naturally?
Does anyone else have this?
When I look in the mirror it feels like whatever is in the reflection isn't me. I don't know what this is called. From what I can remember when I didn't have this weird thing going on it feels like whatever in the mirror isn't there. It's like it got replaced with something else.
My appearance hasn't changed drastically. I don't edit photos of myself or even take photos of myself so it can't be distortion based on that. I see myself in the mirror every morning. But one day it just stopped registering as me a couple months ago I think? I never really thought this would be weird. It feels freaky, like someone is staring at me mirroring my movements.
The only things that I've done is 'practiced' dying to start to chip away at SI. I've also been disconnecting myself from everything. I have no family that cares. I have no friends. I have no relationships past or present. I have no hobbies. I have no favorite videogames. I have no favorite shows. I don't really even know if I have a favorite color anymore. I don't work. I failed highschool. I don't really care for music or tv. I've purposefully burned myself out of everything so I'll have nothing holding me back.
I've done well with getting myself mentally ready. But the one thing that I haven't done is to try to disconnect myself from my appearance. I guess it just happened naturally?
Does anyone else have this?
