I've been suicidal for years now but i can't just find out a way to die peacefully. SN is impossible to get and other methods would be incredible painful. Yet here i am with something that probably will kill me and i can't even get myself to go through with it. I have nobody and nothing is keeping me here but i cant. I know that this is the right thing to do and that i should but i just can't.
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mustard tiger
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- Mar 27, 2026
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it is brutal trying to gather the strength to go through with it. I like to think about how completely fucked my life is and all the future suffering. maybe it will be easier to get angry rather than sad? during one of my attempts I was so pissed off and I think that helped me out.Similar threads
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