I don’t know what’s right or what’s wrong or what’s the right way to go

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I don't know. It feels like every decision I make I inevitably get it wrong. I don't know what's right anymore. I don't even know if I'm saying things because I'm supposed to or if that's how I really feel. I feel tired from trying. I ruin things myself every single time.

Fuck I don't even want to get better. Im pathetic.

Sorry for the rant.